set a lullaby limit,

every night before sleeping, th last person i think of, is you.

think about how much we've been through within th last 14 months.

fr that period of time, many things happened.

every feeling felt.

but you know what is th one greatest thing i learn in all of this?

maturity plays an important role here.

& i'm slowly maturing in my thinking.

i may not seem so but as long we know, that's suffice.

ily.

to strangle, not to strangle?

no no. that's not nice.

what i've realised & learnt from last week?

you'll never know how much you mean in most people's life until you realise your life is worth saving.

it carries a strong meaning behind it. it made me realise alot.

but one thing that means th most to me is you.

to compromise w you fr things to slowly get back, it's what i'll do.

5 years from now... ♥

idk what to type. i can't express it out. sigh.

just got back from malacca. had a great time thr. nothing much to say.
ACER training was fun. enjoyed it a lot.though smtg unexpected happened but i love my blue group fr th effort. thank you guys ((:

CLS DISCOVERY RACE 2010

shan't comment on it. those who attended it knows what it was like.

i shall go rest now. school's at 1400h tomorrow : D

i can feel th bond between us 25 and 26. let it be strong : D

♥♥♥

(:

to soar like that once again,

is a dream to achieve

to shine like that once again,

is not easy

things will fall back in place. it always does (:

thinking back of those times where everything was happy though there are some downs, makes me miss them all and wish really hard fr it to be as it is before.

when life gives you lemon, cut it up and squeeze out th juice.

strong heart, strong mind.

not reaching it.

focus. listen.

reach out.

th only thing to do now is just.. wonder. & continue studying. & focus on close to heart.

nothing much can be said. it's like a berlin wall is being built. or rather, iron curtain is being hung down. thr's no simple gesture or eye contact or friendly approach anymore. it just feels foreign now. but at times, deep down inside, th only one feeling thr is, is worry. healths been affected. thoughts being disrupted. it's not th same.

maybe one day, when everything dies down. and th wall is being broken down, friendship can be reconnected once more. though wishes of everything becoming better is much wanted. because if others can tone down, why can't you too? that's all we asked fr.

happy expressions may seem to flash across faces. but inside, may contain another story.

i pray everything's alright fr you. & i hope you do too.

at times people are not what they seem. th approach they give might be th one they didn't want to give but they did. they might be th opposite of how we see them. or they might be more of to what they had showed us. and this happens in everyone us, i supposed.

be it th good or th bad, these people are still our friends. they approached us, came into our social circle and expand our social circle. however, it's your choice to make of how you want to split your time with all of them. your time or friendship is not tied to only one person or group. you have th freedom to hop around and basically just mix with everyone. that way your friendship with everyone is almost equal.

as fr me, i wish to not get tied to anyone or any group. shits might have happened. but none of you have th right to tell me what to do. i just wish to hop around with friends and be happy tgt.

i really appreciate this certain group of people. th support i have from them is very much appreciated and i really thank them fr being thr. they ought to know who they are. we've been tgt fr a year now and still tgt, as buddy class ♥♥

right now, time alone is much needed. Uncle♥ and BM♥ have been very much helpful and making me realise one thing. itu mereka punya pasal. perangai macam budak menengah. janji, sahabat sahabat saya bersama saya agak matang untuk menyedari akan menjaga perasaan seorang sahabat yang baik.

& from now on, i'm not going to let any reality drama bring me down.

i need to read up on forensic chemistry and quality assurance modules.

shattered rainbow,

i just one thing to say here.

i've had enough of everyth alr. don't make it anymore worse. i'm literally, emotionally and mentally crushed. this is much worse than that of secondary school. this is tertiary level. i'm getting older. we're getting older. stop pressing me w this. i'm depressed enough alr. are you happy? your plan to turn over th damn table has alr been fulfilled.

i won't be surprised should anytg happen next. it's so predictable. you ate my pride. you tore my friendliness. you broke my heart. all th colors are drained out. i have no more colors in me except that of me & my love. you really went beyond th line. you're really too much.

i'm utterly disgusted by th fact i was actually able to tolerate you. i'm really disgusted of myself because of you. do you know how demoralising it is? if not, let me tell you. it's Super Demoralising w a capital S and D. it's enough to make me anti social all over again. enough to make me lose confidence in social aspect. above it all, enough to make me be fcuking disappointed in you.

i feel like an SMACT blogger. i'm not supposed to be that. i've trained myself to not do this. but now, i did. i'm not supposed to but yea i did. why, why. because of you. a friend like you. a friend i trusted so much. believed in so much. tolerated you enough. but no, you never really see that. all you see is me, as a punching bag. yea, punch all you want. till every part of it tear. till you've got nothing else to punch.

don't you dare say i'm talking nonsense. because i'm not. i've gone through enough w you to actually observe your traits. & you know it's th truth.

idk where i stand anymore. i really don't. i'll appeal out if it makes th situation better. i neither belong here nor thr. i don't need charity act. really, i don't. i'd rather be an anti social than to be surrounded by charities.

you see how bad my impression of social aspect is now, huh? do you? do you fcuking see?!

i just need time alone now. i really do. i just need time w love. to drain out this depression i'm having. to recover from th fever i'm having. to get away from all this pain. he's th only one who can do that.

don't you ever think fr a second that friends can just be replaced as and when you like. because you fcuking don't do that. and after your replaced friends are gone, you take back th friends you disposed off. that is just fcuking using them. & you, just made a literal visual example of that. trust me, i know. i've seen that.

i don't like to say name or pin point. but somehow this is rather very much obvious. because th damages you did to everyone is quite severe. as fr th damages done to me, it's severe enough to kill th old me. and it alr did. and whoever knows what's going on would have alr guessed from th beginning of this post who it is. and i know, you know too.

you can cry all you want after reading this. i don't give a damn. you can choose to thicken your skin w flour, also i don't give a damn. because you made me tear more than i ever should. you made me tear when people keep telling me i'm meant to smile.

you can choose to slap my face if you want to. but if you do, i dare you to slap me in front of th mass lecture students. th pain i carry is so much, it's enough to drown you in it. and i've been drowned w it all, w my very own tears. happy now?

sigh. i don't even know who i am anymore. all those years of finding my true self in me, and having confidence in myself to believe in friends, gone just like that. because of you. you really smashed my wall.

this is pointless. you're still my friend. but you'll be somewhere at th back of my mind. i should just treat you as how you treat me as well as everyone else.

non existent.

good night.

bygone... unlikely,

because when everyth comes crashing down,

you'll turn around and walk back to where you started.

however, when you always hoped you have th same people waiting thr fr you w open arms,

you'll find that no one's thr, like it used to.

because they learnt your traits,

they learnt your ways.

they're not dumb enough to just stand thr and keep th cycle going.

because sooner or later, they'll have to learn

and realise that their world doesn't revolve around you.

as fr me, i was th latter.

how shall i start this post. fact or fact?

anyway, school's starting tomorrow. am excited. will be meeting up w friends again. both 25 and 26 people. heard Yr2 is going to be one hell of a year. it just makes me wonder if taking science as a great interest is th right thing. cause i could barely remember what's organic alr :x oh well.

one of th modules to look foward to is forensic chemistry. sounds interesting doesn't it? can't wait to get digging into th module and try to understand why it's call forensic chemistry (:

holidays had been quite a great one. though sadly i wasted it just like that without taking up any jobs. shame on you rau. oh well. it's a lesson fr me. i'll try to search fr part time jobs and well, i'll see how it goes. on th other hand, some days were spent well. w friends and books. uhhuh, i was so delighted when i managed to get my hands on th next two novels fr vampire diaries. i'm left w th 2nd one to complete it. i'm thinking of getting th novels. but that can wait.

what's more important is my health. i need to get some stuffs that are good fr my health. it is such a depressing sight to th fact that i'm 18 and having certain unforseen situations happening to me that affects my health. what is more demoralising is that i do not know how and where to start taking care of my health. this is somewhat abnormal fr me. & i do not really like it. sigh.

this is quite of a long post alr. i'll stop here. i can't wait fr school and this coming wednesday. sword and sheath on th loose ;)

in th lala land machine,

yes, i'm currently awake. w an annoying flu :/ i need to sleep soon.

last wednesday met up w Qayyum, Sed and Bobo. awesome i tell you. missed them lots. managed to catch up on alot of things. really. w th OKAYYYY. lol. can't wait to meet up w them again soon. trust me, they could really represent all th girls who gossips. lol. fun bunch :D

tomorrow will be going fr GYL outing. to marina barrage. can't wait. hope it'll be fun ^^ just like camp. wish we could all camp tgt again. they are really a fun bunch. seriously. not those kind of camps you know you know. it's like THE camp. haha.

& i'm really praying hard that dear ning ning gets in 2B/25. really. please approve her appeal *prays hard* yes, i'm in 2B/25. away from my lovable DCP 05 of 09/10. well th 4 actually. shucks. however, i decided not to appeal as i know most of th 2B/25 people. well, they were my camp mates. & i'll still have lectures/tutorials w my DCP 05 who are now 2B/26. i'll miss them all, especially princess, jun hao, linus... basically my class clique ♥

i'm not sure what else to update on. think i'll turn in now.

night.

typical wind blown against,

my holidays are officially, dull. exception of outing w close to heart and friends (: i'm done reading all th 4 books i've gotten. damn sad. i still need that last book of vampire diaries. urgh it's frustrating when i'm not able to find it anywhere. screw the hard covers. sucks.

shit i just gotten goosebumps and yet again. i removed my keyboard cover as it's annoying. and omg! th lines in between each key are freaking me out. ah shit. okay i had no choice but to place it back. gawd, i have a weird fear ):

can't wait fr th last week of holidays. having a GYL camp outing, help out fr orientation *yay* and meeting up w probably my two swiss cottages people xD please please let me meet them. it's been ages since i last saw them.

anyways, i notice my posts are full of words. hardly any pictures. i'm lazy to post them up. but i'll post a few pictures of GYL camp : D

th few jokers of GYL camp. haha.

Logistic & Editorial Committee performing Abracadabra. th best performance fr th GALA night (:

Nurli, Zee, Sin Ning & Myself : D

students of EEE & CLS. when masquerade theme meets pajamas theme. haha.

My group, 1B. th awesome people i bond w. not forgetting my committee too : D

GYL ♥

yes, GYL rocked hard. i really enjoyed my time. i take back what i said about rotting in thr. it's totally th opposite. i wish i had them all as my classmates. aww, i still dcp 05`2009 (:

results were out last week. i did pretty much well, nothing lower than a B. bio was such a shocker. but Alhamdulillah. it was a true blessing. same goes fr th other. though chemistry wasn't much expected. but it's better than nothing (: hence, this allowed me to apply fr diploma plus. & i did. tomorrow's th results. Insya'Allah i'll get accepted. however, i'm still unsure as to accept it or reject it. still thinking.

went to watch clash of th titans w close to heart today. he was shocked that it was rated 2 stars but we watched it anyway. which could watch it in 3D since he wanted it however, it would cause a hole in our wallet. settled w 2D. my my, quite a good movie i should say, fr a 2 star movie. short, yes, compared to th old one. haha. thr was pretty lady and cute guy. lol *inside joke* & sorry fr whatever that happened. i'll be optimistic (: as of tomorrow, i'll focus well ♥

met shab fr a while after that to pass her Dear John. thank you shab & faris fr sending me off. haha. wish i could stay but can't. & i still feel like throwing my wallet at duane's face. lol. shab, meet up one day & just slack (: ♥

& to BM and RRE: jia you fr JC life. know it's stress but got to keep your mind focus on As (: Insya'Allah you both will do well. everytg will pay off at th end. can means can : D

meet up again soon w shab (: ♥

& i hope GYL camp will be a good one. two days straight searching fr a freaking mask w close-to-heart. it was worth th trip & walking. however not worth my bus/train fare *cries*
hope everytg pays off.

dinner w 11 classmates ystd was fun. at least i managed to speak w almost everyone. shared stories with close ones. bus back home w yian cheng. 518, you caused my bus fare to go below $10 ): however, i enjoyed my time w them.

Please Forgive Me novel is finally done. very beautiful novel. confusions here and thr, written in 3rd person. amazing novel. next up is Vampire Diaries. going to head down to library tomorrow. will bring it to GYL camp. i'll occupy myself w books/ gym/ some friends/ you.

results will be out when i'm still in Johor. going to hog up th internet at th hotel. try & stop me. pray i'll do well in all subjects. i've given all my best. nervous. can't believe year1 has ended. year2 starting soon. damn it.

i've th gay-est thing ever. i can't believe it. wth.

now i understand th whole story behind it. i can't believe you're like that. how could you. i can't trust you anymore. not even a single bit. you very much contradict your words. it hurts me to th max. & th funniest thing is that you don't even bother. i'm not your servant. & neither are th others. sigh.

here i am, sitting on my bed, & wondering what th hell do i want to do next. oh, before that.

MUHD SHAFIQ UNCLE TUNANG TODAY : DD *inside joke*
semoga bahagia selalu xD

i think i shall continue reading Please Forgive Me. though th book is quite uninteresting, fr now. oh wells.

fr th next two weeks, i'll be packed. though i can't wait fr th coming monday. please drop by my house. make a surprise visit ;) followed by Gala comm meeting. omg, camp is so going to rock. which reminds me, i need to get my mask, pronto! wednesday's GYL pre departure briefing followed by shopping w someone close to heart. & on fridayyyyyyy, PICNIC W RRE, SHAB & BM ♥ ♥ ♥ can't wait to meet up w them. i miss them so much.

i find this post is not worth updating anymore. agreed? okay, bye.

pick a lollipop,

today's th 8th! alr, i feel like my holidays are going to be quite a holiday fr me? since i've accomplished my goal of reading Dear John within 2 days ^^ up next is Please Forgive Me.

th last week of exams was literally hardcore. i mugged fr cppb paper w yian cheng fr 7hours. seriously, we were that desperate to pass that module. trust me, other DCP-ians are too. 4th march, th day whereby many had anticipated it since february. after paper, class clique headed down to vivo/harbour front. "de-stressing" day out fr us. a reward fr our hardwork as year 1 students. we had pizza hut & watch alice in wonderland 3D. much to my surprised & blurness, all these was actually to celebrate my advance 18th. super wth. some people tricked me by saying, "we're putting candles on th pizza". old me, believed it. i mean, it's do-able right? lol.

followed by a couple of my friends running in page one at vivo and disappearing themselves. much to my sadness, Dear John novel wasn't in stock. hence, i bought Please Forgive Me. after much walking, we sat down, waited fr th movie. that was when i discovered Dear John novel, somehow. lol. twice everything almost failed. hehe. but i had a great time w my class clique. i love them : D

following day, was a day out w someone closed to heart. meeting up at 9am and heading down to city hall isn't such a bad idea afterall. considering th fact that we watched Percy Jackson movie & there were only 3 people in th movie. lol. after which we just walked aimlessly from city hall to dhouby ghaut to orchard in hope to "digest" our stomach. i took a slow and relaxing bus ride home, 518. though i cost me, quite a bomb? lol. had an unexpected surprise that day. overall, it made my day, yet again : D

saturday and sunday was spent w th parents and cousins respectively. after 18 years of my life, i finally got my first "Happy Birthday" helium balloon. i've always wanted one. hehe. & i had my first ever precious item in hand. haha. it's so dear to me. seoul garden and chit chatting w cousins were awesome. missed them all. once again, both my weekends were awesome. overall, 4days straight, my days were nicely made (:

Alhamdulillah. i thank Allah fr th good things that are happening. insya'Allah things will get better.

i'm quite lazy to post pictures here. screw it. oh wells.

got to turn in. night.

i got myself 4 new awesome novels! i'm super excited. yayness!
although, i just need one more book to complete Vampire Diaries.
shucks ):

anyone knows where i could find th book below?
other than ordering it online. thank you.
it seems to be unavailable at town & pasir ris area ):

Dear March,

today ends almost pretty much everytg.

i ended my end semester examinations.
i ended my Year 1 in Singapore Polytechnic.
& lastly, i'm about to end my 17 years of age.

i shall update soon about today's "destress" outing & tomorrow's outing.
i think i'm going to puke.

Love, Rau

& Novel craze ♥ ♥

& meet th salvatore brothers (stefen & damon)
th gilbert siblings (elena & jeremy)
elena's bestfriends (bonnie & caroline)
elena's ex-boyf of 15 years (matt)
& lastly, th lady that th salvatore brothers used to be in love w (katherine)

& yes, vampire diaries. No, it's because it's about vampires. okay, maybe a lil. however, th book and show are really nice. idk how to explain it but oh wells. can't wait to get my hands on th three books after my exams : D plus(!!) th show on Mio TV. hehe. Episodes 1 to 8 of Season 1 have been awesome. PAUL WESLEY! lol.

&& double yes yes. i've all th 6 novels. however, i have 6 more to go. waiting fr them to be published. Next novel is titled, Burned. all th novels ends w -ed. weird. oh wells. can't wait to get it too : D after 4th March.

Th movie was out ystd. Will get th novel, i think. lol. saw th trailer and heard about it from ee lin. very nice movie. thought of watching it w clique. but they've decided on valentine day movie. TAYLOR LAUTNER! hehe. can't wait fr that outing. de-stressing!

&& can't wait fr picnic w rre, shab & BM. she too right? : D miss them all. can't wait can't wait. as well as GYL CAMP @ Sofitel, Johor, Malaysia. ning ning! we all crash into one room at night. haha! pssst* we still have performance to come up w :/

i'm down w 2 papers. 2 more to go. IO CHEM and CPPB. can't wait to get over and done w. i cried fr my EM1 ystd. was so stressed w physics based math that i couldn't do it. but Alhamdulillah, w me praying to God and friends who comforted me, i still went on taking th paper and syukur, i managed to do th paper. though it was tough. Insya'Allah i'll pass.

Niat > Doa > Effort (oh gawd, i frgt what is it in malay :/) > Tawakkal > Redha

that's what i learnt in T.A. (:
well, gtg. i want to read up on chemistry.

NG SIN NING, I'VE UPDATED MY BLOG : D

it starts w L and ends w R

" in every cloud, there's a silver lining "

With lies you may go ahead in the world - but you can never go back

-Russian proverb

“They begin by imposing upon others, but end up deceiving themselves”

-Anonymous

if i'm clairvoyant, i'd alr predicted th future.

paul wesley>>stefen salvatore ♥

& paul wesley as stefen salvatore :D

meet stefen salvatore. a character in vampire diaries. well vampire diaries is actually a book. has 3 books to it. written by L.J Smith. however, ever since th twilight craze, this book has become a tv series as well as a movie. th tv series is awesome. i like! not quite sure when th movie's coming out though. th book was out like ages ago. read it twice. it's very nice. not because of th vampire stuff. just th setting and yea (:

i want th whole collection of vampire diaries books fr birthday, please. these covers! and the 7th book of House of Novels. gawddd, i'm supposed to be studying and yet i'm updating and having wish list. my birthday is not even coming laa. haiyoo rau!

speaking of birthday,

HAPPY 18th SEANAAAAAYE! : DD
sad much we can't meet to catch up on things as well as a birthday treat fr you. haha. nvm. we'll find a day (:

exams are around th corner. can't wait to get it done and over with. finding work too at th moment :/ i hope i pass my exams w flying colors. if not, then at least a GPA of above 3.0 is suffice. i need to do well. sigh.

okay, i'm done updating.

" & breathe-recite-relax, "

stop scratching laa,

Happy 16th (is it? lol) to my dearest cousin, syuhrah ♥♥
grow taller okay. hoho xD

secondly, today th new batch of DPA students came in. & i was so hyper. i went student hunting. lol. searched fr my lovely DACP-ians. very easy going people.

mavis, twinnie (i can't spell your name right but i know that's th pronounciation), qi jie, justin, danson (i think) and nicole. yes, yes i remembered all! hahahahaha! and it's in th order me meeting them just now. hahahaha again -_-"

only my course talked alot. thank got dr annie tan was thr. so was dr voon. helped me to explain to them better of their new course. hey, i'm a DCP-ian. slightly different from them though i'm their senior. hahahaha! after that we went fr th school tour. mr joseph chan was th lecturer rep fr CLS. hahahaha! funny funny. like a poly student. we all had fun. SPICE training fr them was cool. hahahahaha. jerry and i were injured in a way. he knows, i know, those around us who saw knows. lol. & jerry, take care of my precious nicole okay. even if she's in a different group. sadly, i won't be going fr th camp. *sob sob*

it's okay. thr's forest adventure still. and those 3 days i have to really catch up on my studies. missed engineering math and microbio today. mr ting still can piuwpiuw th pointer at me when i visited th class. lol. so much to catch up on. sin ning, fill me! hahahaha.

jerry and i went fr GYL camp briefing. wee~ i'm in th same sub committee as sin ning. yay! can't wait fr th camp. and it's at a hotel *eyebrow go up down up down* lol. they said thr's free time. hehe. gala committee is so going to rock. MASQUERADE theme! hehe.

today is really one hell of a day. i was worn out by th time it got to lunch. i was sleeping and drinking my green tea. lol. by th time it was th GYL briefing, i was alr shutting down. but thanks to th applause given when they introduced th lecturers, i was quite awake back. but when training home, i went down to almost zero. limitation. when rau is approaching zero. lol.

okay. i shall stop blogging. it's a long post. sheesh. and i think i was hyper fr a short while. my hyper-ness was short lived. and tomorrow's going to be a loooooooooooooong day. sigh sigh. will not dampen my mood (:

and 8 hearts tomorrow ;)

night.

if thr's one important thing i've learnt in T.A today, it would be AMANAH. i've been given quite a no. of it. so far, i've fulfilled a couple of them. th rest, i've failed to do so. & now, i'm going to make it right. i will not show th person(s) aib (sp?) to other people. if he/she gives me an amanah, i will jolly well do it. that is if it's a sensible one. killing, hurting, stealing or any negative doings aren't amanah. so is saying vulgarities. from now on i'm going to fill my mouth with a lot of Allah's name (: when i'm angry or having an uneasy heart, saying His name many times and really believing in Him will, Insya'Allah, calm me down. when i'm facing an obstacle, seeking help from Him, praying for Him to guide me well, Insya'Allah, He will show me th light to th problem.

and right now, i'm going to do my prayers.

ticky tocky,

sitting on th bed, facing th comp, doing CPPB experiment 4 graph, w a rolled tissue in my right nostril and wondering why i embarrassed myself today in school ><

i shall never use high heels to school anymore. and if i do, i'll make sure i'm in skirt or straight cut jeans or any jeans/pants that doesn't need to be folded. note to self. shit. sin ning, i want straight cut jean. lol.

presentation was alright. screwed up when trying to remember th suction filtration equipments. shit. there goes my A *fly fly fly flying away* it's okay rau. it's okay. written report, must do well (:

not sure what is thr to update alr. except that th next batch of DPA students are coming in next wednesday. *screams fr joy* idk why i'm happy but yea. wish i could relive the days all over again. w "you look so sian" as my first sentence to my first friend in poly ;) oh gawd. i so want to relive it on that coming wednesday. please please let me say it to your face! haha (:

i think i'm going to study alr. as in really study th study. engineering math is like a killer alr. *sob sob* chemistry is starting to get on my nerves. cppb is uhhhh alien? microbio is on th fence. omg. save me! tutor tutor.

okay, i'm done.

slowly picking up things.

& here i am sitting on my bed early morning. not knowing why i suddenly woke up though i'm still tired. close people should know why. 7hrs is still isn't enough.

i guess i should go back to sleep. been getting too many dreams in one night. way too many.

good morning. bye.

who? you?

before anytg,

like, what's your problem.

anyway, 3rd day of school. and i'm feeling happy. gotten back all of my results except excel. shit. i did fairly well. i got a shocked fr my intro to microbio. my one and only AD fr MST. hear me cry and complain more about how much i hate it. lol. chem was below expectation. come on, 0.5 more marks to A and you can't find it to give me? *cry cry* lol. oh wells. will be working extra hard fr EST. don't want to repeat any modules since my course is no longer thr. though it's thr. haha.

tomorrow's SP Open House. i didn't get my thursday duty w ee lin ): nvm. me and crazaye(s) will be a darl and drop by at her booth and wait fr her till 1pm. i know, you love us, thank you -_-" haha. heard from suff that th sec4s & 5s will be going fr all th poly open houses tomorrow. wonder which class/classes will be at SP. nvm. and tomorrow, rre will be going to TP open house ): awww can't meet her and shab. i miss you two ♥♥

oh! met aishah MI ystd. after so long. missed her so much! glad to have met her ystd. also, met alyah ystd. HAHA, highlight of th day, INCEST-or oiii! hahahaha. inside story. but i was glad to have met both. ♥ and jerry too (;

london bridge might fall down.
th cradle might drop from th tree.
gravity makes everyth fall back down.
but you can't bring me down.

hah!
okay, i want to do maths.
bye!

th big 10, ey?

finally, back home, in singapore (: even dad agrees that 4days 3nights is a lil too long.

so i ushered in 2010 at holiday inn, malacca. family was so hyped up last night (: and now i know how malaysian people celebrate new year. everywhere, literally, everywhere, thr are fireworks. near th eye on malaysia, at mahkota hotel which is next to holiday inn, at dataran pahlawan, somewhere in a few kampung areas and many more. crazy i tell you. after which my family randomly watched different channels on th tv. and off to bedddd.

on th last day, heading to sentral melaka, market area. got to know some shocking news. it's indeed a sad piece of news. but oh wells.

i know resolutions are to be made on 31st dec? but yea, just list down a few of mine now.

fr 2010,

to be closer to HIM
to not neglect my prayers
to study smart and hard fr EST year 1 and fr yr 2 (omg, im becoming a yr 2 student)
to be a better and nicer person (:
to always push myself to th best
to have strong bonds w my lovely friends, always (:
to try and fix any loose friendship

i think that should do it. i can't really post every single thing here right? nvm. and i can't believe it's 010110 today. it just feels weird to start right back at 01. not sure why. maybe because too many things happened in 2009, it feels like it is on going.

but then again, i have to realise, th years will keep increasing. days will keep moving as time keeps ticking.