.THE WEIRDEST HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH.


yet, it makes me smile (:

WHAT?

& YES. NEXT WEEK'S PREP EXAMINATIONS. *scream, yay* & THINGS AREN'T GETTING ANY BETTER. THE STRESS IS PILING UP. *scream woo* PLEASE, 8 AUGUST *temporary liberation*

& I MISS THE WHOLE LOT OF THEM. YES YES. ESPECIALLY THAT ONE. THAT ONE. *smile* & NEVERTHELESS, I STILL VISIT THEM DURING PRACTICES, TO CHECK ON THEIR PLAYING. & THE PRESENCE OF THAT ONE MAKE ME SMILE. NOT THAT I VISIT FOR THE SAKE OF SEEING THAT ONE.

& Non, je ne pense pas que je vais comme lui, même si je fais. écart d'âge beaucoup? Je ne sais pas. Et je ne suis même pas certain si il aime moi. ses amis peuvent être effronté à la fois. Toutefois, puis-je comme lui?

movie(s) for the weekend

it's an awesome movie. well yea, typical boy girl thing. hated each other. swapped bodies. learned about each other's way of living. fall in love, swapped back, end. however, hey! it's really a sweet movie. funny too. rating: 5/5

it's a must watch movie! :D

& it's true, guys in teenage love movies never exist in reality.


next movie is the dark knight. it's A must watch movie too. you won't regret it. i didn't. joker was superbly acted out by the late heath ledger. OH! bruce wayne is h-o-t! yes yes, don't ask me why i say that but he is :D ahahks. overall i give the movie a full 5/5 laa. the suspense all, fantastic-o!

GO WATCH IT! REALLY, A MOVIE NOT (I REPEAT, "NOT") TO BE MISS!

"why so serious?... why so serious?"

only because.

i could break down any moment.
however, i'm still standing on both my feet.
only because life doesn't stop moving for me to track it back.

it's never the same since you left.
only because i'm trying to pick back up my life.
although i have people cheering me up.
it's not the same feeling that i always had.
only because life seems to drag me down under before i find true happiness.

survey!

Tagged by Dewi! :D

Qns; The person who tagged you is?
Ans; awesome nenek, DEWI!

Qns; What is your relationship with him/her?
Ans; i take care of her, not literally.

Qns; Your 5 impression of him/her?
Ans; awesome, funny, friendly, pretty, intelligent.

Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Ans; tagged me, lols!

Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
Ans; idk, haha.

Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, you will ... ?
Ans; laugh my ass off.

Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improves on?
Ans; her appearance of looking like a guy, LOLS!

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ...?
Ans; scream in her face & laugh.

Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Ans; because she's my enemy? haha!

Qns; The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Ans; doing this survey, see i kind, haha.

Qns; Your overall impression on him/her?
Ans; funnaye.

Qns; How do you think people around you will feel about you?
Ans; i'm no telepathy yaww.

Qns; The character you love of yourself are ...?
Ans; eyy, sentence structure wrong.

Qns; On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are ...?
Ans; wrong sentence structure again, haiyoosh.

Qns; The most ideal person you want to be is?
Ans; who else, but me (:

Qns; For people who care & like you, say something about them.
Ans; awww, i like you too.

Qns; Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. nur aishah
2. jaslyn
3. amirah nabilah
4. farah ain
5. aizat aizuddin
6. syuhrah cousin
7. haris cousin
8. nadrah
9. aliah fatin
10. anybody

Qns; Who is number six having relationship with ?
Ans; with me, duhh. haha -.-

Qns; Is 9 a male or female?
Ans; female.

Qns; If 7&10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Ans; whoever is that anybody, zomgxz.

Qns; How about 5&8 ?
Ans; bitch, 5 is attached.

Qns; What's number 2 studying about?
Ans; winston churchill.

Qns; When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
Ans; few hours back, chemistry class.

Qns; Is number 4 single?
Ans; i don't know.

Qns; Talk something casually about number 1.
Ans; number one is a female.

friendship, crash.

& honestly i tell you. i miss that bestfriend of mine. or so to me she is and will always be. really, however, i'm tired of being the one making the first step to make the friendship better. i don't know. maybe what nur amirah said is true. we'll just have to see.

& oh, trust me. when i say i don't, it means i don't. i don't miss the rest of them. read between the lines, please. & i'll keep my options open.

however, one thing's for sure. i miss nadrah. i don't know. i'm just not there yet to start the ball rolling. it hurts just that much when we argue. friendship at test is much painful than relationship at test, trust me. can i have my bestfriend back, please. sigh.

& to the rest of the girls (they know who THEY are), ya i don't miss you girls. however, i miss the what to me is T-R-U-E friendship. i miss all those times. however, was it only to happen when i'm happy & not like this? don't make wrong assumptions. the friends i needed the most just bailed out on me & thought i'm like this because of relationship. that's why i don't miss the rest of my usual girls except nadrah.

i don't have expectations in friendship. if i do, i'd rather design my own kind of friends. however, when i needed them the most, they aren't there. when that happens, all those fcuk things come out. it hurts that much when all these happens. i don't know about you girls, but i do feel hurt when the friendship is being challenged. i'm out of words.

there. bye. & i owe some people a lot. thanks ya'll : D

& right down under.

i am confuse, am i not? i shall leave it unanswered, for now, till i get a clear view of the answer.

question, what do a person get from a liberation that's caused by a lie? i'm sure it's happiness. however, come to think of it again, i'm not sure if it's a good thing to do. because if truth has already become a sin in days to come, what makes a person sure that a lie will not be a sin? confusing much? maybe, i had a hard time trying to structure out that question. anyways, that aside.

in case some ignorant people didn't know, people do have brains. a lie will stay as a lie. however, if some didn't know, some tries to hide the real truth behind it. unfortunately for these people right, the lie used was so last season, that people can penetrate through it. doesn't that sound just that bit familiar to a couple of people? smile away.

a truth becomes a lie. a lie becomes a truth. good becomes evil. evil becomes good. sounds like hell boy movie to me, but that aside. like face this. exaggerated, but ya, it seems logical, pretty much. a person builds up high trust and respect towards another person. however, with just one lie, the whole tower of trust and respect collapse. sounds like a game at the carnival where kids love to throw balls at cans arranged in a form of a pyramid. oh, i love to play those back then. ok raudhah, you're digressing away *echo*. anyways, main point, thousands and thousands or even millions of hopes, trust and respect can be built up. no one cares. however, when a lie, depends on how huge it is, strikes, all those positive adjectives/nouns built will collapse, just like that. as simple as when the gun goes *BANG!*. that one, people care. people sees a single lie like a thousand. but sometimes people see a thousand truth like a single truth. building it up in the beginning is easy. however, it depends on the person when he/she wants to secure them all tightly. they are just like a house of cards. just built up with nothing to make it stick with the other cards. when the wind blows, it all falls down.

anyone get what i'm saying. i know one person does. oh the wonders of beating around the bush. please, correct me if i used it wrongly ^^

oh, & at least some people do accept learning points with open arms or maybe with respect in order not to hurt the person. unlike some, ego just have to cover them up. i'm not pointing fingers or saying names. however, when ego strikes, get a red bull. i know, i know. no link. but hey, certain people get what i mean.

just because a person is well-known and popular, don't make others like your pillar. just because you may seem superior, don't make others look inferior. just because street smart applies to you, doesn't mean book smart ain't that too. just because appearance plays apart in you, doesn't mean others only judge the book by it's cover. looks in a person ain't that deceiving at times. however, what makes it look deceiving enough is when the picture is being painted. that's when true colors will appear. go figure. however at times, looks can be deceiving. especially when the truth is covered by the appearing lie. yea baybeh! my english sounds rusty. and i think most of my sentence doesn't make sense. however, as long as i do have companions who do understand them, it doesn't kill me. ain't that cool, not.

& to whoever felt the sharp knife stabbing in you after reading this, please understand this. it was never meant for you. this are being stated in general. however, if you still feel the stabbing of knife till your brain, good luck (: although i know, a couple of them will not feel a single thing. amazing isn't it. especially... *rolls eyeballs* obscuring the truth, ouch (not). at times, it is good not to be oblivious. because when to one is ok, it may not to hundreds. think about it. happy wondering.

long enough i suppose? alright, i'm done. bye.

all it took was a lie to smash them to bits & pieces.
all it took was a truth to turn the world upside down.
all it took was liberation of a lie to make happiness bloom.
all it took was liberation of truth to make laughter be the last, for me.
a truth can be a lie.
but a lie can't be a truth.

dosage...

first & foremost...

HAPPY 16TH SHAMAINE NUR QASHDINA :D
although liyana & i have wished you, being me, i wish almost everywhere that i can. stay happy always ya :)

next...

i love my Saturday 0800-1100. my dosage of craziness for that day of the week always make my day. today was the total shiets! my group consist of amirah, hanis, dewi and myself. we took up the theme patient, & acted out a news live telecast about the theme. i was the volunteer taking care a 96yr old elderly, dewi, *nenek rocker, (inside joke)*. got interviewed by hanis. while, amirah was the newscaster (easy job right, but she was cute). sadly, my group skit wasn't recored :D the others were as i recorded it, simple as that. ohh that reminds me, GET WELL SOON ZAHIRAH! :D

2hr-3hr of pure study was worth it for me. conducive place to study, unlike * :D * i'm done with, well almost, the revision of rise of venice. headache i tell you. however, with the talks & gossips, it can never go bored. plus paddlepop rainbow! right liy (:

OH! to 4/5 students, i came across an assessment book, i think it was an assessment book. well, it's SS/ELECTIVE HISTORY. it seems like the new edition. the topics/themes all matches to what we are learning now. it cost $15.90, about there. go check it out ya. oh, i saw the copies at TM Popular. i'm not sure of Whitesands.

& now, Os are coming. for those who are trying to ignore the countdown, well, you're left with 2 digits days till Os. mugging is totally O-N.

finally...

Ngee Ann Poly really caught my attention. the Life Sciences courses offered are like, the courses. the lecturers are friendly. explanation was clear. & not to forget, i love my facilitator for the Health Science. she like rock hard laa! very bubbly. & saw kak jannah plus kak fazliyana, well the person looked like her though (: over all, NP really have my vote. however, options will still be kept open. i want to join in DPA, but... i heard there is a need for testimonial? i don't know. enlighten me people! closing is on the 14th of july *i'm trying to be oblivious to an even happening on that day, nyahaha*

it's as simple as that.
*BANG!*

quote...

ne vont pas pour les attend, ils peuvent tromper. ne vont pas de richesse, de même que s'estompe. aller pour quelqu'un qui vous fait sourire parce qu'il faut seulement un sourire à faire un jour sombre semble prometteur.
♥ ♥ ♥

now you know why i was once that happy girl that everyone, including myself & you(eyh?), loved?