im so frust and fucked up you knows. why? urgh!!! why did i ever went to the BBQ in the first place? nevermind. here's what happen till it made me FRUST GILERRR!!!

i went to a band gathering at pasir ris beach ah. pit no. 27. i went with sayyid, from cornet section. he looked smart. that's a compliment. noting more alright. ken said it was at carpark A there. we went there. the bbq pit was from no.29 to 38. then i called ken. then we had to cross the bridge then we saw pit 27. helmi was there. because i wanted to hand him his birthday present. i walked past him. hahas. didn't know it was him. but he called and i say ya i know. at the pit, kak dayah, kak huda, nizam, and the chinese were there. then helmi waited near the dumpster there. i asked sayyid, kak dayah, kak huda and nizam to teman. then i went to helmi. thought of talking to him for a while urhs. i saw his friend smoke. i was like, gawd! then this was what made me lose my mood the first time... ABG HELMI HIMSLEF SMOKE!!! urgh!! when i saw him holding the cigeratte bud from far, i was so hilang mood. i just gave him the present and walk away. wanted to cry. how can he do this to me?! then he kept calling ''adq'' but i buat bodoh. then his kawan cakap, '' marah nampak''. eh F off larz. then helmi just walk away. how can he do this?! smoke?! in front of me some more!!! gaah. forget it. do whatever you want ok. i don't care.

then i got ok. the bbq didn't start till like 1700hrs. gawd! kak aisyah came. the ex-seniors and ex-ex-seniors came. then kak dayah all ask if TT guy coming ke tak. i had to ask him so many time. waste my time only. then we all filled up plastic with sea water, for water bomb. me, sayyid, wei liang, nizam were throwing water at each other. basah habis seys. and i had a cu on my leg. ter-hit batu in the sea. hahas. me and sayyid went toilet and dried ourselves up! hahas, we were dry in no time. then at around 1800hrs plus many went home. then me, sayyid and shah, went kedai buy air. then i saw lutfi and radhi[is it him or who?]. then i saw someone wore black. and it was... TT guy. too bad he can't see me. i think already buta habis. then me and friends walked till pit 15 there. on the way saw areen and irdayu and cladyl[don't know spelling]. gawd! i love areen's hair! she dye it seys. so cantik giler. ayu looked pretty as usual. so is areen. hahas. they got maid. hahas.

then me and friends patah balik to pit 27. we ate ayam macam tak pernah makan ayam gitu. hahas. we talked and laughed with the ex-ex-seniors and talk about their schools. what only salihin. tak salah kan i talk with kak aisyah's cousin. aper jerr. before that TT guy sms. then i had to call him. i skip most of the conversation aite. he said ah if i already nak balik, i call him. he owe me a night walk. then i say ok ah. i was dead happy. then my parents want me home by 2000hrs. then at 2000hrs i called TT guy and told him i nak balik. here was what made my mood lose for the second time. he said so fast. and he wanted like abit later. what seys. abit later him 2030hrs or 2100hrs! giler. i was so frust, i cleaned the pit area, took all the tupperwares[nizam and kak dayah told me to keep for them and give them tomorrow back] and left with sayyid and shah. i was all frust and fucked up taus. i almost cried. it's all the same cycle. first you said you can, then cannot, then can, then cannot. BUGGER F! waste my time taus. kalau tau you still like this, i already blah with kak rafidah, salihin, kak malina, basically the ex-ex seniors all. urgh!

pagi2 kata boleh pergi. then say you need to help your mum. understandable. then you say maybe you go. then you say you go. then you say so fast i nak balik. you know what?! forget about the bloody night walk! IT WON'T HAPPEN!

by the way, thanks sayyid for sending me home. as a friend. i owe you one ok? thanks. try the advice i gave. maybe it might work urhs. alright? hahas.

TT guy will get it. orang tengah sabar ni. oh yes, nizam, i love your mum's mee siam! so nice! kak dayah or kak huda yang bawa ayam or the hot stick thingys? ok either one or seperately, I LOVE THEM TOO! all the makanan were DELICIOUS! whee~ and i was fun knowing the ex-ex seniors and so on and so forth. haiis. nice bbq but it turned out shit in the end. ohs wells. nevermind. love it.

probably TT guy right now still at pit 14 having fun. while i'm here in a frust and fucked up mood. thanks a whole lot... NOT!