Ok...It seems kind of boring now to update blog.Haas.Anyway,COMMON TEST is OVER!!!Weee~Haas.Marks gotten already.Except Geog.Morasks are GOOOD!Pass.No fails.One C6 and the other 2 is A1s!Yayness.Good urhs.Haas.Well need to buck up a lil' bit more though.

That guy!!So SORRY!!Yesterday you must go back around 8 AT NIGHT!!*sobx*

Today is Akid & Akif's Birthday.Happy Birthday guys.Hope the party fun urhs.Haas.

Hmms,class cheer seems to be going well.Shirt,probly have to make our own.Nak order already tak sempat.So we use our creativity urhs.Haas.

Walao!!Yesterday...yesterday...Mr.Kelvin last day.In BAND!!!As our band conductor!!He was the best!I know it on Tuesday urhs.Then I was like ''YES!!He's going!Good.I don't care!'' Then yesterday he came urhs.Then the 2/4 students gave him tokens of appreciation.Then he kept quiet for quite some time.Iqa say he was going to cry.Then he spoke up.His tone and the words that came out of is mouth was so touching and sad.After that he left.The 2/4 broke down to tears.As for me,I was trying to hold back my tears.Then I ask Iqa follow me go toilet beacuse I can't take it but I wanted to cry.Then on the way,I cried.I can't believe it sehz.This is the first time I'm crying for a teacher because he left.I told Iqa I don't even know why I cry when I was happy he left.But after he truly left,I felt bad and just broke down.He was the best.He doesn't scold us.He can tolerate us.And I really like it.Thank you Mr Kelvin for all.*sobx*

Anyway,uh...Tomorrow is Adrie's birthday.Happy Birthday!Next month!!Yeah!!!8 MORE DAYS TO GO!!!5 MARCH!!Mine,Irdayu's and Afiq's BIRTHDAY!!!Weee~Haas...Crazy la me.Haas.

Oh ya.Alleycat and Nabilah 2/8.I forgive that Biacth.But,I can never be her friend again.So in short,I forgive her out of NOTHING!Muahahaha.Haas.

Ok.I'm outs!
Mr Kelvin!!We'll MISS you as our BAND CONDUCTOR!!!

Hmmmz... Yesterday went to Farreha’s Birthday party. It was the BOMB!!! Husni, Shabrina, Ain, Liyana, Shamaine, Maryam, Aminabi, Big Momma, and more were there. First, we sang Happy Birthday to Farreha and her cousin. Then we had some cakes. I and Shab told the others to smear the cream on Rre. And we did. Rre was OH GAWD!!! Full of cream. Haas. Then we all went to the beach. Rre, Maine, and Rre’s bros went rounding. I, Shab, Saly, Areen, Ayu, Aminabi, Mary, Nabz, Big Momma and Husni and the newly made friends, mats, go to the beach. All the girls, except Big Momma and Saly went to the sea. We pull and push one another into the water. It was damn fun. Then we tried pulling Husni into the sea. But failed. Damn strong siah he. 6 GIRLS can’t even pull him sehz. Haigz... But it was fun. Then at night, I, Rre, and Shab go rounding. Eerie siah. *shivers*. Then we go find this Aidil guy. Shab called for his name very scary sehz. It was like a girl’s voice very the ghostly sehz. We cycle like so fast when Shab did that. But we found the guy eventually. By the time we got back, almost many had gone home. Around 9.30pm I went home. Haigz... But it was so fun. HANISAH!!! You should be there sehz.

Too bad sehz. I never bring that guy with me. *Sobx*

Today, go my aunt’s new house. The Condominium near Elias Green *Ehem*... Haas...It was kind of fun urhs.

Oh SHIET!!! Tomorrow is common test. Haven’t revise siah. Whattuhell.

Shab, you were right. We could have sworn we could have killed them. FUCKEETY FUCK!!(That’s my line o.k.)

Haigz... Oh ya. Tomorrow Hanisah’s Birthday. Haven’t buy anything. But hopefully tomorrow can urhs. Haigz...

Bored sehz. I hope right March holidays, we girls get to make girls day out. Where we hang out together at the beach go rounding just like yesterday. It was totally fun!!!

O.k. I think that’s all urhs. Gottago!

Ciao!!!

OMG!!!She's totally being someone ELSE!!!
That's SO NOT her!!!
What the hack??!!

Anyway...
Hanyut girl...
Is...
D adqz sehz...

Not to her...
But...
Nevermind...

GAWD!!!
She's so turning into someone...
That is cute and all...
Why do you have to??
It's not like you aren't...

Whattuhell la...

Oh wells...):

So long never update...

18 February...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARREHA!!!
14 years old already.
Maybe going to her party. Haigz...

That guy, nevermind if you can’t follow me o.k.? Family is more IMPORTANT tauz. Haas... And don’t need to buy me anything urhs. But if you insist, I’m speechless. Haas...

Yesterday Band. Walao sehz. Just because I can’t tongue, doesn’t mean I MUST right. I know la Jonathan. You are trying your best to help me. I appreciate that. Haigz, I got a one-on-one talk with him. It’s true. I lost interest in playing the clarinet. Face it. I can’t even play it in the beginning. Also my condition is preventing me from playing it. Also, my friends. They are all playing it perfectly well. Except me. It really hurts when your friend can play well and that she is LOOKING DOWN on you because you are not up to HER STANDARD. How hurting can that be huh?? I never tell Jon that. Only my condition. But finally, I made my decision. I don’t want to play the clarinet. I was never interested in the clarinet after my so-called friend keeps boasting. Eh I know la!!

YOU ARE ALREADY THE PP (principle player) IN CLARINET!!! WHAT MORE YOU WANT??!! SL (section leader)??!! GO AHEAD LA!! I DON’T GIVE A FUCK!! YOU WANT TO BE BAND MAJOR ALSO I DON’T CARE!!! YOUR ‘’PLEASE RAUDHAH. PLEASE. DON’T DO THAT AND MAKE ME SUFFER.’’ IS DAMN BULLSHIT!! EH IF I DON’T WANT TO GO TO BAND MY PASAL LA!! DON’T ACT AS IF YOU ALREADY THE SL OF CLARINET!!! PERGI JALAN SUDAH LA!!! Grrr...

One fine day, I’m going to call her a BITCH in front of her face. Urgh!!! WHATEVER!!!

Oh god!! Nothing is building up in the cheering competition. Haigz...

Wooh!!! Lucky I pass my common test. JUST PASS... 15/30 sehz...

Oh gawd!!! I’m starting to go crazy over snickers!!! Not the chocolate. But as in SHOES!! Man, they really attract me sehz. High-cut shoes and more!!! Haigz...

Haigz... I really miss him sehz... That guy urhs.

Oh SHOOTS!!! Hanisah’s birthday is THIS MONDAY!!! And I haven’t got for her anything!! I’m truly a BAD COUSIN. *Slap* Ouch... Haas...

I’m bored. *Yawns*

O.k. urhs. Want to serve the net.


Toddles (:

Today, today, today. Very the bored day. Sian you know. Haigz...Gave up on Helmi lerr...Lyss one ok. Haigz...I have questions that keep playing in my head since I don’t know.

1) When will someone understand true her feelings?
2) When will he understand her deep feelings for him?
3) When will she understand all of this?
These questions kept playing in my head. URGH!

Haigz, yesterday in Band I got ''Lectured''by that Leung. Because here's what happen:-

The Band Major told us to pack up our instruments and fall in. I, Liyana, Gelynn and Umaimah didn't know there was house keeping la. Then we all happily wearing or shoes. Also the others band members all were falling in. Then suddenly the Band major say ''everyone get in back inside the band room. Do house keeping.'' So all of them went in. Then I and Yana all were like aaahh… It took us a long time to wear our shoes. Then the Band Major say to us ''Eh go back in band room do house keeping'' Then at the same time also, I was balancing myself while taking out my shoes la. Then I almost wanted to fall. COINCIDENTALLY, after the Band Major told us to go back, I ACCIDDENTALLY said '' OH FUCK!!'' And then the Band Major said ''what? Got problem IS IT??!!'' I was like No''. WTF??!! She thought I was saying the word FUCK to her. TERASER LA SHE!!! Grr... Then like what sehz. I kena go see Leung and he talk to me sehz. CRAP you know. She, the Band Major, think you what??!! GEMBENG NAK MAMPOS!!! Ibarat ''Siapa makan chili dia la yang terasa pedasnya'' Something somewhat like that. Haigz can't say much. I got into trouble with my senior clarinetist, the damn Band Major and Leung guy. FOR NOTHING!!! What sehz. If like this right, I might as well QUIT band. Also I wasn't supposed to join band. Because I got weak heart. And I was suspected of having Asthma. But can't detect it. Haigz... So nevermind I get into band. And PP, Sec.2 clarinet, mentang2 you PP, doesn't mean you can tell me what to do ok. I have the right to do what I want. Who cares about clarinet anymore when you can even understand the damn fucking thing itself at first??!! Not all of us are like you ok. Grr...

Erm, that guy. Look I know you... GAWD!!! I forgot. I wasn't supposed to talk about it in my blog. Haigz, I'm truly sorry if I made your life miserable. I supposed I can't write much about you hahk. Haigz...

DAMN!!! Common test coming sehz. I haven't study yet sehz. I must pass.

By the way, yesterday was the release of the 'O' level result. My brother well... He got 20 points. WTF??!! 20 points!! Haigz... But at least still can enter Polytechnic. Some other people that I know the points:-

Nicholas got 19 points.
Naufal got 16 I think.
Jiao Hao got 14 ehk? I don't know.

Not many urhs that I know.

3 more damn days. Valentine's Day. But so what? It's CCA day. Blah. Farreha's birthday is coming. Yayness. Happy Birthday in advance aite? Hahakz... I feel like I got no friends sehz. I don't know why. I bet that sooner or later my Band friend will hate me because of my FUCKING attitude. Haigz, you can't expect to change straight away right? I mean, it's hard for me to change as you tell me. How am I suppose to change my attitude if you people treat me always the same? Invisible and unwanted? That's the life of RAUDHAH Mohamed. Can’t say much actually. But at the same time it’s up to the people out there to think what they think about me. It's their mouth and I can't stop it. But I can TRY and make them rethink about what they say. I don't really know how it’s to be done. But I'll find it somehow.

OH MY GAWD!!!

I'M MISSING

THE GUY

I LOVE!!!!

MISS YOU!!!

Wooh!!
Long eh tk update this crap...
Hahakz...
Haigz...
14 Feb...
VALENTINE...
Haigz...
I DUN INTEND to have one...
Tk nk urhs...
Haigz...
But I got two ppl...
I can ask them...
To be my valentine...
Hehe...
GAWD!!!

TWO BOYS...
ONE GIRL...
ONE LOVE...
ONE HEART...
ONE CHOICE...

And I don't know what to do...
ANy ppl got suggestion??...
Cuz I do kinda need HELP!!!
Urgh...
I wana slash my hand again sehz...
Niwaes...
Todae...
Sec.1s came to band...
And to other CCAs...
No offence...
Kedi smua sehz...
Haigz...
Zul,mmg smua SLENG...
Haigz...
Went to take neos wit...
Alyah and fwenz...
Lucky I was so called...
ON TIME...
For band...
Hahakz...
Haigz...
Mr.M...
My CUTE adq...
Sori la...
It's not tt...
Me tk nk tok to u nimor...
But...
I dun wan d situation...
To gt any worse...
And becum a big issue...
But,I'll try my bez aites...
To tok to u weneva I can...
Tt guy...
Walao eh u...
Lya told me evrythng...
Now u da tk ckp dgn pompan lyk u use to...
Asl??
U do tok to dem...
Tapi stakat councillor nyer hal...
And/or important stuffs jerr...
Asl ni??
I noe la those two guys...
MENYUSAHKAN ur lyf...
Dun worri aites...
I'll bring sum sense to their heads...
Nvm...
Klau they treat me lyk how...
They are treatin u...
As long u tk kena...
Dun worri aites...
I dun mind being d one...
Suffering...
Asl u tk kena sudah...
Abg(Lyss guy)...
La...
Not tt adq tk nk dgn abg...
Tapi...
I need tym...
To clear the mess...
Tt I made...
And tt...
ADQ MMG TKLE DGN ABG...
Harap2 u paham urhs...
It's kinda suffering ya noe...
Imagine...
For the gurls...
In d middle of two guys...
Hu wans u...
Haigz...
I cnt help it...
But I muz say dis...
It's really affecting my studies...
Dulu dgn Razzan ONLY...
My lyf was juz normal lyk usual...
Lepas tu...
Cums Helmi...
Abe now btween dem(Helmi and nt zan,bdk laen)...
And chusing hu to be wit...
Klau ble,I dun wan...
But...
I DUNO LA...
I luv tt guy so much tauz...
Weee~
Hahakz...
Skul...
Getting beta I guess...
Just tt...
I cud have SWORN...
I wud LOVE...
To kill HANYUT GURL!!!
But...
I can sabar...
Haigz...
Ok...
Now I wana log off...
To do my h/w...
Or juz do revision...
Tatas...=]

Harloo x3...
Hahakz...
Wah...
Tired sehz...
Band today...
Oh man!!!
Shit!!!
Aru bagus2...
Nak stay online...
Nak chat dgn tt guy...
Urgh!!!
Now got new comp...
Virus going arnd...
Shit siah!!!
Wat sehz...
Urgh...
Nvm...
Uh...
Today go see that Amat guy...
Hahakz...
Chubby size...
Cute size...
Face,ok2...
But then...
Eeeeewww...
Like sorry...
No offence...
Mat tepered(correct??) sesat...
Seluar da tergantung...
Aper lagik...
Da la nak jumper dier...
Pun susah...
Sini tk le...
Sana tk le...
Urgh...
But wtv...
Hahakz...
He's not that decent like...
What I thought he was...
GAWD!!!
Helmi better...
Hahakz...
No la...
Tt someone is the BEST...
Just now in school...
Help 2/6 white wash the class...
Then played with paints...
I took paint in my hand...
And then chase people...
I want to disturb...
And whack the white wash on them...
Razzan the WORST!!!
Kena on face,hand,hair,ear...
Hahakz...
Cute la Remy...
I terlanggar him...
Then his hand kena paint...
He was lyk ''Aaaaahhh...Raudhahhh....''(Like Small Boy)...
SO CUTE!!!
Hahakz...
Erm...
Erm...
Hey,tt guy...
It's true what you sae...
I wasn't shocked...
But...
I was FREAKED OUT...
About seeing that Amat...
Only you know how I feel...
Haigz...
I owe you...
Muuuaaacckkzzz!!!
Hahakz...
Haigz...
Amat x2...
I didn't thought you were...
What I didn't expect...
Not in a good way...
But the opposite...
But,you are...
Cute...
Chubby...
You should be named...
''CHUBBU''...
Hahakz...
Anyway...
Hanisah...
Wohoo!!!
Why I like this...
I also don't know...
Hahakz...
I'm crazy...
Hehe...
Da la nak out...
Byezzzzzzz~~~~~~~

Hahaha...
Don't know why I so happy...
Hahakz...
Erm,ok...
First...
I'm laughin...
Cuz to make myself cooled down...
Stress over studies...
Haigz...
Nxt...
Abt him...
I knowla...
You both are slowly...
Developing feelings...
For each other...
I can tell...
Thanx Bobo...
For the answer...
What you said might be true...
It's all clear to me now...
You(not bobo;but tt guy) are OBVIOUSLY...
Defending her more...
I can't say much...
Well,that's how you wanted...
Haigz...
And you dared to change...
Your duty with Cheryl...
How could you??!!
You two(not you and cheryl;you and you know who)...
Seem to be so PERFECT...
And doing so well the duty...
TOGETHER...
If you think I'm being sarcastic...
I AM...
Cuz...
You made me too...
Even my adq da tk trust you lagik...
Even tt NPCC guy oso...
You've change so much...
MUCH MORE than me...
Ever since with HER...
Don't you know??!!!
Argh!!!
Nvm...
I won't post what I want...
To say abt that damn girl...
That's why just now...
Before that...
Hanisah sorry just now...
Like I relunctantly...
Wanted to stay in school...
I just can't stand seeing her face...
I'm just pouring out all my anger...
It's better not to pour it out...
Towards the person you are angry with...
I still do respect her...
Since she has a higher...
Authority than me...
I still respect her...
Cuz she's my best friend...
Once though...
Now I don't even know...
Sometimes I just wish...
I could give one...
TIGHT SLAP to both of their faces...
It's true what my adq say...
Tt guy ALREADY should be given one...
But we just can't...
Cuz he is HIGHER AUTHORITY...
And that...
We'd feel guilty when doing so...
Don't think we angry and all...
We give no mercy...
FYI!!!...
We do...
We don't want to make a big CRISIS...
BIG ISSUE...
We know la...
Cuz we oso have feelings too ok...
Haigz...
Oh ya...
Can you believe this...
He say to my adq right...
''Eh asal raudhah being so SENSETIVE about [[not to be name]]''...
EH FUCK LA!!!...
CHI BAI!!!...
KaN nI nA bEi...
You think you what!!!...
Tak per2...
Raudhah can sabar...
I always can...
See it's true...
You defend her so much...
As though she's your...
Urgh!!...
Btw...
GALAH GUY!!!
I have a name ok...
Nxt time you say...
''Excuse me.Excuse me,yes.''...
I will...
I don't know...
Hahakz...
But please la ok...
I got a name...
Hanisah girl!!!!...
Don't take what had happened too hard ok...
Me,Daphne and all are here to comfort you...
He's just merely making it a joke...
And being crap about it...
But...
You should forgive him...
Forgive and forget...
Trust me...
Selagi awak tak maafkan dia...
Selagi awak akan dihantui oleh dia...
As in feelings for him...
Wouldn't fade...
And you won't have a peaceful life...
So try and forgive him aites=>...
Ween,Saly,Nabz...
Thanx for ajak-ing me...
Go mkn at Centrel with you all...
Sorry to be a penyibuk...
And susahkan kamu sekalian semua...
I feel guilty...
Anyway,don't tell people tau...
What we talk about...
Shhhh...
Hahakz...
Eh,I wonder if the male fly still searching...
For his mate...
I feel so guilty...
Killing the mate...
So nice2 already...
They mated...
Then I kill it...
Hahakz...
Farreha...
STOP SLASHING youself ok...
Haigz...
Anyway...
You sure arr...
You want my thoughts...
For your birthday...
I'll give you aites...
I'll find a way...
Somehow...
Hehe...
Smile aites=>...
Chubby...
What in the world...
Did...
CHUBBU say??!!
Chubbu is your Sec.3 friend...
I know it's something bad...
Haigz...
Anyway...
I have no idea what to buy...
Oh GAWD!!!...
Haigz...
17 days to...
Farreha's birthday...
19 more days...
To Hanisah's bithday...
25 more days to...
Adrie's birthday...
28 more days to...
Nadrah's birthday...
But...
Since 29 Feb happens to be a leap year...
She'll celebrate it on 28..
Hehe...
That's birthday update...
The ones that I know la...
For the month of Feb...