in malacca,

currently in malacca, holiday inn. using th hotel's computer.
1hr, 6RM.
can't wait to get back this friday.
missing many people. and i have many things to complete.
can't wait to see my lovely people soon.

bye.

GO SEZAIRI! GO SEZAIRI : D

currently watching Singapore Idol.


GO SEZAIRI : D
been supporting him since th top 12. *screams*
okay, i'll stop. bye!

christmas in town,

& i'm a suaku. i loved th casing they gave. haha.

woke up in th morning to find out 4 people wished me merry christmas. though i don't celebrate it. but it's okay. thoughtful of them to wish. will let them know next time (: & i just got one from sean. haas.

today my day was spent at town, w ee lin dearest. mostly in 313 @ somerset. it was funny. first was NEW smtg smtg smtg, can't remember th name. lol. next was F21. 4 stories high, siao. we surveyed and looked at almost everytg. haha. followed by uniqlo then uhhh... can't remember what shop. and then cotton on. tried out th shades. was tempted to get one since ee lin was persuading me. she's a good persuader. haha! my classmates would know what i mean ;)

then we went to food republic. and we just chatted and smiled at this cute adorable kid who sat beside us. then headed back to cotton on to th shades finally. since i wanted it. ee lin was torn between two and finally i tempted her to purchase th same one as me! : D i'm plan A persuader, while she's plan B, C, D and so on. lol.

after that was takashimaya + wisma atria. walked around. surveyed cotton on again, lol. told ee lin to one day just roam around singapore and survey cotton on shops. she then bought this heavenly delicious ice-cream! yummy. then i suggested we walked from orchard all th way to city hall.

while walking, we talked and shared so many things. laugh here and thr. some more somone was a lil deaf, haha! while th other had problem pronouncing words. lol. half way, we got lost. and this time it wasn't at selegie road. but some where near it though. lol. and we ended up at bugis, one stop ahead. and ee lin trust me! HAHAHAHAHA! and headed home.

it was really an interesting day. funny too. complain complain, make stupid punchlines which weren't supposed to be thr in th beginning. laugh laugh. had a great time. next time must drag th two west people, sin ning and jastina.! haha. oh! and yian cheng too ^^

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been talking to a few people these days. they are th ones whom i really trust and whom always give good opinions. they never fail to make me feel better. to make th tension loosen up and lift up whatever bad feelings i have inside. they are friends whom i know are true friends. & i'm really glad to have them. many loves ♥♥

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i know my friendship w a certain someone is beginning to get better (: i'm glad things are getting better. maybe it's best if it stayed this way, fr now (: hope to visit you soon ^^

& this is th house you've built in me ♥

till th ray of light shine on me,
i will keep wondering.
till then.

It's slowly crumbling down.
It's slowly losing.
Before you even know it.




It's Gone.

ohmygawd! i just found out and remembered that i had 4 abandon blogs in 2004! and they were all crap. haha. and now, i've just claimed and deleted them. hurray fr me. i need not have to worry or wonder anymore. lol. those were th days. lol.

anyway, went to watch those blue alien movie today, avatar. it was interesting. sad too. but very nice movie (: it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. lol. before that, i went to eat at th nasi padang stall at zion road. like finally. after 7months. th dishes were delicious. except, it was quite a lot. lol. couldn't really finish it.
after movie, headed down to orchard. walked around. went to orchard central. haha. confusing sia th place. but i like. lol. after that, home. quite a long day today.

i've forgotten what to type. it was supposed to be updated ystd. but somehow, they wouldn't let me in here. tsk!

oh, yes. one update i remember was picnic w shab & rre dearest last tuesday. th picture taking was funny. all th funny poses we could ever come up w. lol. followed by appreciation dinner at meritus mandarin hotel. finding th hotel was a headache. lol. well, it was raining and i had to walk under th rain. thank god i changed into rre's heels at th hotel. if not, idk what could had happened. lol. th dinner was alright. i love my table. made me feel comfortable. th food were quite alright. lol.

and yes! finally remembered ystd's update. went fr th student helper workshop. 5 people from my class came plus han zhen. and 6 from th other class came. it was very fun. i like th trainer. very lively. ee lin and i will help out on th same day and time! : D sad sad sin ning didn't come. sigh. but th workshop was great (:

nothing else to update i think. except window shopping w sin ning, ee lin and i think jastina too at 313. haha. ee lin wants to check out th forever 21 thr. 3-4 stories high i heard? siao. lol.

alright, i'm done. bye.

saturday night fever, literally,

& this friendship and love first made in polytechnic will be remembered th most ♥

many te amo(s) to th tallest guy in th picture (;
i suddenly miss those bunch of people in DPA, Cluster3. th best combination of people i've ever had. th madness and all. i wish to have an outing w them again soon (:

& they make friendship bonds seem impossible to be broken ♥♥

met up w shab and rre ystd. shared so many things. laughed quite alot. going to have another meet up this tuesday although i'll have to leave early )): nvm. but i really had a great time ystd w them. imagine if we were to do that 5years later. stories we share ystd and things that are currently happening, when we look back, it'll be smtg amusing or smtg to learn from (:

speaking of tuesday, i have 3 events to squeeze in. yes, yet again. lol. book fest w stalkers. followed by lovely picnic w rre and shab. lastly appreciation dinner at some mandarin hotel at somerset, SPSU. i'll be out from 11am all th way to 11pm. woah. i need a getaway. probably on wednesday i'll stay home and rest? or maybe zion road w jerry? idk? i know on thurs i'll have workshop. yayness, since thr's ee lin and sin ning. sad sad jastina won't be thr ):

i think i better get going. tired shitzx. i think i'm going to get ill :/ nights.

" when i was a small naive kid, i kept seeing love as smtg wonderful. till now, i still see it that way though at times, it will hurt me. and when i was small and naive too, i told myself, i wanted a handsome caring full of love prince to be w me. now that i have him, i want to create my own happy ending "

1330h,

currently waiting fr 1330h. will be meeting awesome ee lin and alyah. ee lin, i feel you. haha. meeting up w awesome people today. can't wait. there is so much to share, idk where to start. things that happened in our lives, which they weren't in it.

i just finished reading a certain someone's blog. eyes pain, because th background was black O.o i have problem reading if th background is black. it hurts my eyes, damn. it got me thinking alot. and idk why. maybe i should be thankful w what i have and how my life is. maybe i shouldn't be complaining too much. maybe, i should live life w no regrets. idk. it's just a thought.

maybe i should make up to people whom i've fought w. exception of one person. suddenly, a certain friend comes into mind. she's one of those i neglected so much. but not because i chose to. but because i really can't be there fr her. come to think of it, i miss her. but i know things won't be th same again if we were to ever meet up and share things. sigh.

there are friends whom i keep in touch still and once in a while either one of us will initiate a meet up. and nevertheless, we would all make it. be it rain or shine. and these companies that always color my life. they can't be there fr us always, but they'll keep reminding us that inside our heart, they always are there.

there's also friends who i'm constantly hanging out w. my classmates. they're people who i've to stick w and who i love to be around w. they will always brighten your day without fail. th funny actions/words/things we do or are tgt, makes them all worth laughing at. not only that, we also manage to learn new things from one another. th fact that i'm surrounded by a race which i'm a quarter of it. and i'm glad i'm friends w them. and this makes me feel like i'm no different from my bro which i'm quite happy of (:

and then there's my family whom i loved a lot. they're always thr. though they don't know much about what's happening, but they're always giving me happiness. i now learn to cherish them even more. spending time w them isn't as bad as i thought it would. and w bro coming home only on weekends, i now realise i bond w them all, even more (: th only way i know i can repay them is doing well in my studies. which i'm slowly building up. mustn't bring their hopes down. being th only child interested in science is smtg i must be proud of.

there's also him. someone who constantly brighten my day be it he's w me or not. though at times words do bring my down. but that will never stop anytg. we're in this tgt and we do everytg right tgt (: and i hope one day, we have one thing less to worry about. te amo.

i think this entry is a lil too long? idk. and i got to go alr. meeting ee lin and alyah soon. see ya.

750,

been away quite a while. since this week is MST week and i've just ended mine today : D
4 papers in 3days. awesome isn't it. unlike last semester, 5 papers in 5 days. oh wells, it's over. & now's my holiday. freaking 3weeks. yessah! although, i have PBL, RWP, and a couple of reports to complete :/
that shan't dampen my mood. i shall complete them all as soon as possible. starting w report which will due this monday.

after my last paper IO chem, to celebrate th temporary relaxation of 3 weeks, i went to watch New Moon w jerry. yes, slow mo. plan to watch it last week was unsuccessful, hence, it was pushed to today. it was an interesting movie. i kept telling jerry what will happen next. not base on th movie but th book. hoho. and someone wish he had powers like jane. lol. thank you fr th day (: te amo.

this friday, will be meeting shab and rre : D i miss them loads. we have many things to share. i'm glad i'm still in contact w them. can't wait and all th best fr your remaining papers, shab (:

oh! 2 days ago, history was being made. haha! i shall remember it fr life. seriously. that is not something you would ever thought raudhah mohamed would do. but, she did. joke of th year. seriously.

i had th urge to blog. th urge to type out so many things. but when i start typing, *flushing sound* everytg got flushed out :/ nvm.

next week will be slightly busy. book fest w my 3 stalkers! haha. followed by maybe doing my PBL and RWP. and will be having a workshop. awesome thing is, jerry, han zhen, sin ning, ee lin, jastina are attending it too. except that th guys are in different slots. nvm, that doesn't matter. haha. followed by trip to zion road. this time, i have to go. 5 months ago we planned to go. 5 months later, we still have not went there. i want to eat th claim-to-be-awesomtastic-nasi-padang. haha. although i still want wanton mee : D

okay, nothing to update alr. bye.

away i go,

& i'll count th days,

will not be updating that often. MST is coming. still have yet to print out the timetable.
will be doing some soul searching in me. never too late to have time w your own body & soul.
will be counting down till i know it's th right time again.

bye.

picture not-so-perfect?

& it's a perfect gift of friendship (:

that was taken during RWP. mdm tan thought we're crazy and bubbly people. lol. speaking of which, i'm half way done for RWP. jia you rau jia you!

school's been manageable i think? this semester is definitely not the same as last semester. tight schedules and this causes time to get all haywire. and that saddens me ): i can't wait fr my 3 weeks christmas and new year break. i have so many things i want to do. holiday with family, shopping with jerry and friends respectively, book fair with sin ning, ee lin and jastina, meet up with rre and shab (i miss them loads), going to back to band with han zhen and i think that's all fr now? quite a lot fr 3 weeks yawww. lol. however, i want to fulfill them all (:

many things happened too. i'm not sure if they made me weaker or stronger. but let's just say i choose the stronger aspect. what brings you down, usually makes you stronger... right? as long as i have my friends, old and new, and family and jerry, i'll keep going on (: besides, i'm always taking care of myself. and i have to ;)

right now i'm taking a break from reading my last book of House of Night novels, HUNTED. i've been reading since morning. from chapter 7 to 23 . i mean, of course there were breaks in between. can't expect me to read during lectures right? idk why i'm so engrossed in reading when i should be either doing my citation homework, cppb & io chem revision, reports or revising. maybe because i want to know the ending of the who series and get it over and done with before i get hooked onto it and forget about revision. oh well.

today, i love my girls. we watched another cinderella story on sin ning's lappy during break and after school which ended 30mins early. lol. we were laughing our ass off. we imitate most of the scenes. especially the dominique's part and the step sisters'. haha. i forgot how these all came about. i think it was yesterday? haha. but we really enjoyed it. oh that reminds me! add on to the list during the 3 weeks break, movie marathon! but please, no shutter or horror. i'll scream and make sure i won't sleep fr nights! lol.

alright, i'm done. better do up th ITM tutorials. lol. & waiting fr jerry's message.

little thoughts running like lil kids,

am not a good blogger. i'm lazy to update. i've got better things to do. i've yet to complete the citation exercise since due date was yesterday. screw you. i think i've got a few things to blog about? i don't know.

4th week of school, is alright. although organic chem isn't that pretty. but i love cycloalkane. got geometry shapes. hell, i didn't even know such thing existed. fun to study but hard to remember. omg, i need to make notes already >:/

2 days ago, on friday, i saw amanda ng :D miss her. been like 10 months since i last saw her i think? i only remember seeing her during sec1 orientation camp. *refreshing memory* yea, i think so? lol. but i was glad to see her (:

can't wait fr tomorrow. meeting shab, rre, BM and frine. although i'll be th late one. since there's practical tomorrow when there shouldn't be any. however, look on the bright side rau, next week no prac & tomorrow' is only 90mins. cool or what. lol. but i love monday's prac, MICROBIO! ey ey, i digressing. suppose to type about meeting the girls. lol. it's been awhile since i last saw them. miss them loads. and the JC-ians have already somewhat ended their JC1. no fair. while shab & i still have school. boo. lol. nvm.

oooo, yesterday i went to the body work thingy at science centre. interesting exhibition. all the plastinate shown were of human origin. i was an idiot. i thought the plastinate were just mock up models laa. but then they had infos on them and how they are done and that's when i found out all the human & other animal plastinae are R-E-A-L. macam budak bodoh saya ini. however, overall i enjoyed it. though i was in pain since i was standing for so long. lol. i want to go again. jerry, please? (:

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow : D okay bye!

3rd week of school. feeling happy, normal, sad, angry, tired, emotionless etc. i think? idk.

i just feel like updating but i'm not sure what is there to update. i'd rather just share things with my friends face to face. that'd be better. plus plus plus the purple book. jerry! my turn to update, i think? lol.

5 more weeks to MST. please please please let me pass. sigh. i feel stupid. nvm. i'm an average girl afterall (:

little mary drop to the ground,

1st week of school & already i'm tired. however, i shall not be a loser and call it quits for school. i love the modules i'm learning. i'm having loads of fun with my lovely poly friends. & best of all, my 2nd week of school is going to rock balls. especially on the 28th and 30th. it's going to be hell fun.

i know i'll be totally drained on wednesday but i don't give a shiet. i know i'm going to endure the whole day. i can't wait to dance up to the stage. HAHA! i can't wait to touch the PA controls again. i can't wait to see the secondary students. sadly, my school back out last minute. sheesh! or else, i would have felt proud. PROUD OI! sadly, no. but i don't care. i mean, no surprise laa. nvm.

that aside. i need to get my introduction to microbiology notes printed out. it's going to look like shit thick! because it is. and i didn't know cells have food too, ribosomes. someone, please say i'm learning and not that i'm stupid :/

mr ting is awesome. *CONFIDENCE!* lol. bio is not something which is easy for me. let alone physics back then, sheesh. hence, this calls fr jerry jerry strawberry. th bio genius. haha. let's just say he's very smart ;)

if bio is going to take up much of my time, so will the others. IO CHEM! omg. orbital, subshells, energy level, uhh... 1s2, 2s2, 2p6 etc. lol much. but i thank god because i'm taking 6 modules this semester : D the same as last semester. my other friends, well they're taking 8, including GEMS.

anyway, something shocked the shit out of me. however, it's nothing. just one coincidental situation (:

& i'm done (:

" Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves "

- Sir James M. Barrie: Inspirational Friendship Quotes

" i'm multi talented,

i can talk & piss you off...

... at th same time "

-credits to ottiesdesigns

a long post, no?

hmmm, i'm not sure if i would like to make it a long post but i'll see how (:

& i'm happy as today i'll be staying at home. after 3 days of going out. mann, i deserve a break before tomorrow's dinner with my lovely 4/5-ians (:

monday;

met up with ee lin dearest about 1600h plus. found out she went to beijing! we talked a lot. told her a few stuffs and she too. sitting at mc cafe & just chatting plus drinking hot chocolate is relaxing. however, it was a short meet up as she need to meet up with another friend of hers. she has so many meetings ahh. lol. but i'm glad to have met her on that day. missed her loads!

tuesday;

met up with jerry about 1300h plus. before that, i saw mrs neo! i miss her so much! chat for a while. found some things about CPT. will keep them in mind (: after that met jerry at whitesands and headed down to aishah's (MI) house. she was from school & that day marks the end of her promos. insya'Allah you'll get promoted babe! i love her house! and her siblings too. funny bunch (: ate lunch at her house (: & she wore pink! haha! irritated someone ;)

after that headed to my house. at my house, something happened. however, so far, nothing is being asked. phew! after that, my T.A peeps came. thank god aishah (MI) & jerry were there. they helped me & thank you guys! love you both! oh! i changed to pink. and hence, in th house, there were 3 pink ladies & it made someone laughed ;D

then i went off with my T.As and aishah (MI) and jerry left fr whitesands to slack since aishah (MI) had an interview at around 1900h. i hope you get through : D i had fun with my T.As. dewi, zahirah, zul, suf and myself stick together most of the time. lol. i told dewi & zahirah a few stuffs. big S and small S. haha. after that about 2000h plus jerry met us again and we headed down to punggol. to suhaidah's house. by then i was tired. and hence left with jerry. thank you (:

wednesday;

yesterday! woke up early. been waking up early these days : D met jerry first. a few turn offs. about 1400h, mum sent me to bedok mrt. met up with linus first. followed by jastina, ben and dao seong. miss all of them! then the west people & we headed down to east coast. waited fr quite a while before the food came. haha. then slowly, the rest came. sorry eelin & yian cheng! didn't come with you guys. along the way, something happy happened & i'm glad (: then the bbq started.

eelin and i then went to walk around and i returned my bike. saw jessie & sin ning : D then at pit, saw wei loon & the 3 of us went crazy. share so many stories! haha. dr chia and his wife came too. then he asked about an CLS event. & eelin, wei loon & myself are going to be the PA people! YAYNESS! can't wait. haha. making so much noise!

then the 3 of us went to mac. along the way jerry & shi min tagged along. talked to shi min and jerry. something made shi min laughed and i don't blame her. HAHA! then headed back to my pit to take my stuff. since i'm tired and want to head back already. so cabbed down with jerry, shi min & jaslyn. something made me sad ): but nevermind. then home.

enjoyed myself totally. the food were awesome! the fanning boys did a great job in cooking the food! class bbq was a success! haha.

i've posted some pictures here. the rest are at facebook. haha. next up loads of pictures is tomorrow evening : D

& i can't wait for school to start. life will be stress again but what matters is that i get to see my lovely friends. hee. okay, i think i'm done. bye : D

& i can't wait to meet up with ee lin dearest fr a gossip session with her : D

miss her so much! as well as the rest of my DCP 05 peeps. can't wait for the outing too (:

& to wei loon, we're so going to jump into the sea *inside talk*

anyway, not many things happened. except that from now on, i won't stick my ass into committee stuffs. literally, that can piss me. tsk! however, at times, i can't help it. it runs in the blood. sigh.

anyway, 500 days of summer with jerry was awesome. i love th movie! funny yet sad. however, there were an annoying couple behind us who can't stop kicking the chair and talk. sheesh! and after the movie, when i turned around, unintentionally, i saw them hugging so tightly and laughing like they did something ewww. anyway, not my problem (: after that visiting with my primary schoolmates. i miss them all. and gawdd! the guys have grown! haha. i miss aishah osman (: and syamimi too. meet up again soon!

& school's starting next week! wee~ can't wait. new modules. omg. lol. this time, i'm going to sit in front. must pay attention alr. lol. & not to mention, 5hrs of free period every week fr whole of next semester : D

i can't wait for tomorrow! visiting with aishah (MI) and jerry. followed by visiting with my religious class people. it's going to be fun, and tiring. haha. MIA with jerry on wednesday before class outing. cycling please : DD

alright, got to get ready. meeting ee lin soon! bye!

" i'm no longer that girl you used to befriend with, "

-rau

a birthday wish, in advance: HAPPY 17th AMINA MASTURA (:

& i can't wait fr movie tomorrow, 500 days of summer. i need something to cheer me up after yesterday's big turn off. seriously, nichikedumfcuk!

i can't wait fr next friday too. 4five-ians `08. i miss them all. they are friends worth keeping and remembering (:

& i'm thinking of highlighting my hair as well as restyling my hair. idk. a sudden thought of it just struck me. i'd rather highlight it than dyeing it. sheesh.

& i need to go shopping again. buy a few clothes, that should be it. since shopping with alyah on monday night was a lil rush, lol. only we know.

bye.

& stress,

okay, i know. i don't sound stress nor look stress. but yes, i am stress.

before that. KAK GIRL'S WEDDING WAS THE BOMB! I LOVE IT! IT'S SO AWESOME & I LOVE EVERYTHING. I'M GOING TO MISS HER :(

next. i've been chasing down one person for one thing that should be done weeks ago. & he's not replying my messages. camp next week eyy! need approval eyy! sigh. finding supper was tough but now i think i've found the perfect supper. lol. everything else is set. omg, camp. & i'm not going for prep camp tomorrow. don't ask why. i just can't okay.

next. planning an outing is not that easy after all. sigh. will be having raya outing with shab, bobo, faris, fad, irfan and irfan's friend. plus with jerry. hopefully cover many houses. miss my sec sch people.

next week, my whole week is taken up. yes, feel the misery in me. dad will be home alone )): maybe i can try asking if i can go home at night so that dad will still see me (: or in the afternoon? i'll see how. not forgetting NEWater collection as well as date with my awesome neighbour and jerry, respectively. lol.

i have so many things in mind that i want to let out. but i can't. i'm letting it out on yian cheng & hence, i am not allowed to bully him for a week. wth. nevermind.

okay, that's done.

today, jun hao & yian cheng came over for visiting. very nice bunch. haha funny sia. talk about random things. haas. sadly, sin ning couldn't come. get well soon dearest (:

after that, we head down to funky balls. haha played pool. damn rusty my skills. the cue ball kept jumping many times. haha everyone got scared because might hit someone. haha. after that fish & co. express! HAHA. then home. after that dinner with parents. stories stories stories (: haha.

omg! i just made a deal with yian cheng. he help relieve my stress, i can't bully him for a week. shiet. now i can't freaking bully him fr a bloody week. see la yian cheng! ee lin, come home soon. so you can still bully him. lol!

next. birthday wishes.

1st OCTOBER. which coincide with CHILDREN'S DAY.

HAPPY 17th AMIRAH NABILAH!

HAPPY 19th DINIE FAEEQA!

all the best in your future endeavors : D

& to A.N. all th best in promos! (:

2nd OCTOBER.

HAPPY 18th NAUFAL HAKIM B AMAN!

all th best fr Os and future endeavors (:

okay. that's all. jerry! come early tomorrow okay. i got a whole book of complains to share with you. and you too (:

nights!

another nice day,

seems i'm an hour early but it don't matter.

well, tomorrow's the 26th. council outing. however, i doubt i can go since i got visiting to do. as well as madrasah in the morning. oh gawdd, baju raya to madrasah? hmmm.... lol.

anyway, many things happened for th past 1 week? idk, i think so. many unexpected things happened. the good and the bad. the good shall be kept as memories. while the bad... shall be a learning point. probably?

let's start with first day of raya. hmmm, not many things happened. except i read to naylie. haha. i'm not much of a good reader, but i try to be one. & she's such a sweetie (: there were some turn offs during the midst of it all, but it turned out well. headed to jerry's house for raya. don't ask. derek was there. yay! many funny stories shared. i love jerry's aunt's cooking. so delicious! after that headed home. many people came over at night. got disturbed by an uncle of mine as usual. lol. overall i liked the day.

2nd day... morning was a turn off, again. hey, i'll try to make it a habit yaa (: wasn't quite myself that day. at night, people came again. after which we went to my aunty's house after which my family send bro back to camp :( by the time we reached home, it was 2am in the morning. no decent parking lot hence had to park.. idk what is it called. lol. i slept like a pig after that.

3rd day. can't remember what happened. neither the 4th day. but i know things went back to normal after that. & i am glad : DD oh went visiting to 4th day. at night. mann, tired. lol.

yesterday, went for food testing. omg, the food, were heaven! unfortunately, the waiting of my i/c wasn't. it was funny. marcus and i called him many times. & when he did answer my call, i shout at him and laugh. haha. but he is a nice guy. in the midst of that, something happened, yet again. almost got me to tears. but i told myself not to. & headed to hougang straight after that. things got better after that. haha, it was funny. this cannot. that cannot. haha. but it turned out well after that (:

& today, th late afternoon was great. went to watch the ugly truth. OMG! it's a MUST watch movie. no wonder it's NC16. but it was an awesome show. go watch!

" why do you love me?"

" beats the shit out of me "

after that had fish & co. express. after so loooooooong. omg. th fish & the tar tar sauce. awesomeness! after that walk around & headed home. it's an advance thingy. haas.

have to turn in soon. or else, will get nagged by jerry. shiet. i never sleep at the time i told him i would. lol.

so i'll make it short & simple.

on 26th...

HAPPY 17th DEAREST NURQAMARINA BTE RAMLI (did i get that right?)

finally, same age as most of us (: you're greatly missed! although we're in the same poly, we never bump into each other. simply because our schools are far far from each other. lol. other than that, i'm sorry for those time i've been cruel to you. during sec sch. i still remember you are anna & my mothher. give us bread every morning. very thoughtful friend you are (: hope to catch up with you and umairah or with anna or with nadrah soon (: loves (:

next... HAPPY 20th KAK AIN! : D

it's a small world eyy kak? you knowing my cousins, my friends and all. i miss talking to you. how have you been? hope everything's fine alhamdulillah (: hope to see you around soon ((:

and finally, i think. HAPPY 18th SITI NUR AISHAH.

all the best for the Os. aim for th best. i know you can. & stay focus in life. don't get out of the road. because your life has many better things to offer you. all the best! & th other day, that wasn't my present. a present has to be something nice, pleasant, & that wasn't. i shan't prolong.

i think i'll end here. haha sin ning, yian cheng & myself talking about what color malay baju they should wear. sin ning damn excited! haha. me too. like i said, this year raya, i'm really celebrating it with the chinese (: although i can't wait for 30th sept. raya with my sec sch friends. i miss them all! woo!

jerry! wear malay kurung also okay? pleaseeee : D then later 95mins will become 120mins, okay? (: hahaha. omg, that is so not happening. haha.

okay laa, night!

& he turns 16,

HAPPY 16th RAYYAN : DD

already 16 years old seyys. 2 more years is it? come visit singapore soon, okay? clubbing ah boyy by then? lol.

i miss talking to you in school. miss just pouring out everything. then you, a joker, would try to make a joke out of it. yes yes, junior comforting senior. funny right.

anyways, on a lighter note, since i've graduated from PRCS and you're no longer in there too, i'm quite happy. lol. because then i don't have to complain to sufiah/sarah about me missing you at trombone section there. yes yes, complain only right.

& this post sounds like some boyf/gf post. what the heck. it's not. but yes, i miss you a lot. & i've loads of things to tell you. especially about one thing.

sorry no present. because i'm a noob. i don't know how to send air mail. yes laugh at me. lol. also, i don't know what to get for you. you practically have everything, i supposed. haha.

i think, i'm done. talk to you soon, okay?

HAPPY 16th AGAIN : D

♥♥

& now i've got to rush out to meet up with my food committee for food testing.

an essay,

since i'm free at the moment.

TO SITI NURAISHAH BTE MOHAMED YUSOF

*whole chunk deleted off*

[edit] i had my reasons. it's true. a friend won't humiliate a friend via blog. & as a friend, i respect her and will not humiliate you. it seems this ended off with a wrong foot. but i bear no guilt. i have no sarcasm to this and i have no anger to it. i'm aware of the mistake here. & hence, will let it be. because it seems to keep going on & never end. because of that small mistake. i'm sorry. [/edit]

i think i'm done here. shall update when i have the time. wow, very very very long post since... idk? i shall hit the sack. jerry will be worried sick if i'm still up. i know he is already worried sick.

night.

" & i'll smile to the world no matter what.

for nothing can bring me down.

as i believe,

life's always full of ups & downs "

-rau

"mind blocked"- rau
& i need to relax, now.

& history,

& again, blogger, problem. tsk tsk! nevermind (:

chalet yesterday was fun. jerry's family very funny (:

before that jerry & i went to take the skyride. i'm a suaku! it's my first skyride & i was freaking scared. haha! however, i love the view from the top, beautiful (:

after that we head down to images of singapore. very historical environment when we first entered. then there was this 5mins video about singapore being together as one. & i freaked out, literally. because the 4 freaking pictures moved & talked! scary tau. after that we went to long loooooong trail of from olden singapore to modern singapore. the wax wax thingy are damn scary.

there's one part where there was this chinese man, he fanning himself. i thought real. but it was wax, but, omg! scary laa! ohh! before that. got this chinese lady, she was in white and was wearing a big white hat. then, she sat on this chair and pretend not to move. then when i walked past, she turned around and tried to scare me. i looked at her & went, -_____________________________-" literally. & i wasn't amused. lol, then i think she paisey. haiya! not funny okay.

i love the kampung part. many cultural things they show. like the cukur rambut, mooncake festival, 7th month, and many more. they show how the peranakans (hehe), chinese, malay and indians get married. very interesting. though the wax wax people can blink blink their eyes and move a bit, but still, i love the kampung environment. & i love the history of it all. history is awesome (:

the modern part wasn't the scariest because it was bright, no wax wax people. hahaha. after that we head back to chalet and slacked. played some games and wait for the family to come back. after that helped out in the preparations for the barbecue. they damn cute can. painting the corn, making of tray with aluminium foil. haha. very funny and cute. fun people.

i had to go off in the late afternoon, sad. went back to vivo, met derek and both guys sent me to the taxi stand. haha, personal bodyguards. shared many funny stories with both of them.

in the midst of all the fun, i was coughing badly ): got blood blood taste at the throat :/ however, that didn't dampen my mood. except the last bit because i was very tired. lol.

& tomorrow, visit to the peranakan museum! history history history! then to geylang bazaar! hoho! so many historical place to visit. can't wait. can't wait.

& i miss DCP/1A/05 already ): can't wait for the barbecue. then another semester with them! maybe 6 weeks of holiday isn't that fun at all. lol. speaking of DCP, i'm scared for results. geez. hope i pass and get good GPA. scared scared. and to those JC yr 1, all the best (: hope ya'll get promoted to JC yr 2 : D

alright, till then, night (:

& it's going to be long,

i've finally gotten my damn six weeks break!

yes, you read that right. & i'm so happy, i think.

my last paper ended at 1810hr yesterday! & to think i wasn't going to be able to do the paper, i actually managed to. well, almost all. thanks to my usuals- ee lin dearest, yian cheng, junbrownhao (lol) and linus! (: without them, i doubt i would be able to do the paper. i owe them loads, well maybe except yian cheng. oi, hari raya, remember. lol.

break fast at fish & co. tampines mall with han zhen & yian cheng. lol. yes, i was indecisive while in the mrt. i wanted kfc, pastamania, swensen's, long john, banquet... but wanted fish & co. express, badly. sadly, i didn't get that because the guys were plain lazy to drop at pasir ris. so we chose fish & co. at tampines mall. lol. we took a very long time choose. we had swiss fish & chips & the captain catch. the lala tasted delicious. & so was the fish & chips (: after that we headed home. it was funny la to actually break fast with chinese people. even dad said, "aye, they also want to break fast?" lol.

can't wait for saturday. sentosa baybeh! as well as monday, gelyang bazzar yaww! ooo, can't wait to relax till i become a lazy pig : x

anyways, last monday, rushed back to PRCS with han zhen. we were kind of late though but manage to see some friends. like jaslynBARSTY! shu shu! liy, BM, farah, lat, sue, suf, razzan and most of SHAB & RRE : D & thank you for waiting. after that we trained down to bugis. reserved a table for us to break fast & we headed to NLB to study. but we ended up talking most of the time. lol. shared quite a lot of things. after that, break fast at tong seng, my usual food, hee. can't help it. it's too delicious. we then walked around finding rre's teacher's day gift and thank you card for her coach. i was by then quite tired since i was up since early morning. so sorry that i was quiet :/

we then walked to city hall and went to find M.W (i can't spell the first word properly) to eat frolicks only to find out it was already closed. then we decided to have ice cream at swensen's. had cookie summit, yummy! oh! took pictures too. haha. funny. after that shab's dad drove us home. thank you (:

that's pretty much the only exciting things for the past few days (: since i was having exams back then. however, now, it's over : D waiting for results though.

as for now, i shall turn in. it's getting kind of late. my nose's leaking. shiet. i don't want to fall sick :/

& jerry's a sleep already, haha. speaking of jerry. jerry daddy's birthday today (:

"Orh" *inside joke*

night!

& sleep it off,

& all i need is just one night.

one night to sleep it all off.

& i hope i won't have to worry again.

finally, blogger seems decent. for now.

had a good conversation with nadrah. thank you so much. i owe you loads ♥ ♥

see you on monday okay (:

can't wait for Amaths to end. gawddd! jerry's paper is later on in the afternoon. all the best horr! then must make me smile after that : D

anyways, here are some pictures i was dying to update! lol. it's the pictures from the birthday celebration my class had (:

okay. i got to go. need to sleep. studying A maths later on with my awesome people! oh! did i tell you. no i have not. ANG JUN HAO DROVE SIN NING, YIAN CHENG AND I HOME! AHHHH. okay, sorry, too excited because first time laa. ee lin, you should have studied with us. then you won't see that big cockroach. haas xD

night.

early morning, sleepy day

& it's 0525hr in the early morning of 26th August 2009. i'm waiting to do my morning prayers before going back into lala land. yes, i'm desperate for sleep. i've not been getting enough of it. i don't know why. tsk!

anyway, 1 paper down. 3 more to go. A&PC was... manageable. some questions were familiar. however, i must admit. i did have mind block for a moment when i was doing the paper. that's because i didn't have a watch with me, thus, having to rush like a mad dog. i was hungry, because the room was cold & i tend to get hungry even when i'm not. some of the questions totally stunned me. & lastly, because i was kind of busy thinking about the next paper. which is none other than Basic Maths (A maths). then i'll be having another 2 misery papers next week and i'll call sem1 of my yr1... over (:

& just when i thought my 6 weeks can be planned nicely, it has already been planned, not so nicely :/ *stress stress* thank god i got a good O/C who helps me along. see laa rau. who ask you to not attend the first meeting. missed out on a lot of things. later blur like sotong. tsk tsk. anyway, that aside. sigh.

weii! i want to go to geylang serai bazzar! quickly quickly horr. and and i want my wanton noodle. and and i want mount faber. as well as peranakan museum. and and i want you (:

i've got nothing to update already. yay! now's praying time. got to goooooooo. then back to lala land! see ya!

oh! & i can't wait to see rre, shab, amanda, benjamin, sean, han zhen (though i see him almost everytime this past few weeks, lol) & many many more!

& you know what's the shit part? blogger is being a spoilt kid here. eyy, stop it laa! aiyerr -.-

i'm so happy now. know why know why? because applied electricity & electronics is official O-v-e-r, with a capital O : D just pray i'll pass that module. i know i did study for this paper since i studied with dearest ee lin & sin ning from 1000hr to 1430hr on wednesday (: very fun bunch to study with. & now i'm left with 4 papers before my 6weeks break is being given to me.

can't wait! jericho's chalet on 4th to 6th sept! outing outing outing! hari raya! girls' day out! my own getaway! please! i need all of that.

that aside. went to study today. chemistry, again. it was a good one except for one funny part. lol. after that had J Co. thank you aunty (: then this that, home (: but had to go out again. to collect my phone. shit thing, it was ex ): i cried. fcuk. another shit thing, the top buttons can't be used, fcuk. so that means no more N-gage games. good thing, the buttons are not screwed up. but heck. i can't wait to change handphone.

&& tomorrow's the start of fasting month. but the month of ramadhan has alr begun. &! it's my birthday! haha, 1st Ramadhan (: & tomorrow's mum birthday! followed by shazreen's on sunday! eyy babe! i still remember! lol. might be studying with jaslynBARSTY on sunday. omg! i miss you woman! i miss so many people! & the shit part is that on 31st aug, i have paper. well that's not the shit part yet. the shit part is that the paper starts at 1230hr and ends at 1410hr. shit kaninazxz. have to rush back to pasir ris if i want to visit PRCS and see all my sec school friends. sianzxz.

speaking of sec school friends, congratulations to razzan for getting A2 & Distinction for his Malay Os. & to the others too (: do retake if you feel you can do better (:

i've got nothing much to update already. bye.

dear blogger,

*starts cursing & swearing*

love, raudhah

ahh yes, screw my blog. i'm tempted to try tumblr or wordpress or open up another eljaay. however, on the other hand, maybe just blogger will do (:

so, many things happened for the past weeks. i'm done with both presentations. i'm done with two quizes. i'm preparing for tomorrow's AE&E end quiz. please let a miracle happen & let me pass (:

& i'm preparing for my upcoming ESTs which will happen for the next two weeks. & then.. BREAK BAYBEH! can't wait can't wait (:

anyway, i skipped school today. hoho. well the two lessons were optional. hence, i decided not to go. plans to study with ee lin got cancelled too since i had study plans with jericho & yea, kind of forgot :x sorry ee lin! studied AE&E at Esplanade library. screw a particular library. wait, not the library but the guard there. my apologies (:

&& my N81 is currently at the hospital. the front buttons got cocked up. dang! please don't die. i need you for the next 3 freaking months before i can change phone. nevermind. the current phone i'm using is quite comfortable (: can i continue using it? please (: hehe.

seems i got nothing much to update already. oh! yes. i remembered (:

I. CAN'T. TRUST. PEOPLE. LIKE. YOU. ESPECIALLY. Y-O-U.

there (: i feel better now.

damn it. i can't upload pictures. the damn icon. can't even click on it. tsk tsk! nevermind.

bye!

& i need to relax, but i can't :/

again, blogger is giving me shit. nevermind.

so here i am, on a tuesday night, "starts singing *i'm in my room on typical tuesday night, i'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like*", okay, not needed. i'm on the bed. having headache again. been getting it daily for the last few months. is it bad? :/ i never enjoy getting these headaches because it sucks to the max. will have to endure it. oh gawdd, 3years, come quickly. so i can graduate fast, & well too (that's important) and then i can relax for a short while. i need some kind of relaxation a.s.a.p. i'm thinking of therapy or spa or just go to some kedai urut. fuyooo! very stress. *stress stress*

yes, poly's been a whole stress-ER lately. with the upcoming EST (end semestral tests), SPSU (SP student union) and SPOT (SP outstanding talent). i'm coping quite well for my studies exception of AE &E, MIP and A maths. i just hope i get good grades and a good GPA. 3.2 maybe? am i asking too much? hmmm...

as for SPSU... errr... let's just say things haven't been quite well for me there. i'm unable to attend 3 rehearsals for the NDOC (national day observation ceremony) which is happening tomorrow due to unforeseen circumstances. i have a few tasks at hand. busy busy. but yet, i don't seem busy aye? have to get my priority straight and manage the time well. that seems to be my issue here, :/

as for SPOT, sin ning and i got selected to enter SPOT. it's a very cool programme which prepare those selected students for prestigious scholarship, go for dialogue session and many more. and we hope we could get in. the TWT, the world today module is hardcore awesome. we will learn about current affairs, the world today, obviously, about history, watch political movies. which are all awesome laa. the lecturer who explained to us about the module left most of his sentence hanging when he asked questions and will say, "come to class" everytime. which really made us accumulate a big ball of curiosity in our heads. come on laa, historians rock okaay? ;D i've just gotten a reply from Dr Ong (no, not that ong) saying that my name has been sent to the committee for further confirmation. i hope i get shortlisted and have to go for an interview. it'll be like DPA all over again. apply, shortlisted, interview, wait and results. if sin ning i get into SPOT, we'll be sticking together : D ahahks. what's more, she and i are like the same. both in band, play clarinet (well i used to play that) and are the only 2 got SPOT-ed in DCP 1A 05. oh! & we go hungry fast too. lol.

speaking of hungry, today is jacemon (mon mon pokemon) birthday (: 3 days ago was ee lin dearest's. 10th july was james. haha yes long gone. but we celebrated all 3 together today. sin ning, ee lin and i headed to clementi and bought the cake for james since danny's gang buying for jacemon. &&! sin ning & i had a little cake for ee lin dearest. the funniest part was ee lin didn't know a single thing, haha. cute can that girl. and ee lin became silent mover for the day. because the guys got bashed with whipped cream which was a bit ewww. cause it melted : x overall it was okayy (: i gave their presents respectively already. jacey & james got a shirt from Punk Star, same design (rihanna's umbrella laa) : D ee lin got a letter E necklace from minibits (: i hope they love the present (: OH! we 3 girls saw something disgusting just now. hahaha! blue cake, eww, haha.

as much as i am seen slacking and not caring much about school, i actually am. just that, i want to smile and have fun. it's never good to not have a happy life yknoww. but sadly, that's fading aye? need to get my butt smack next sem. it's going to be tough yawww. IO Chem, CPPB and ENGINEERING MATHS! ohmygayyy! feel the misery. shan't let it be a let down for me. for raudhah can do anything. CAN MEANS CAN. gawdd, i miss abg yan saying that to me when i'm having tuition, lol.

i want to fly to Paris, France. sheit. nevermind. hee.

alrighty, done posting. need to rest my eyes. oh! pictures of the birthday thingy will be up soon.
& sin ning! buy shades soon. haha.
& jericho, i need an outing... SOON, please : D
& to jastina, get well soon babe! don't let the oink oink flu get to youuuuuu ; D

it was you,

" it was you
that showed me who i am
& taught me how to stand
for what i know is real "

finally! blogger's fine again. it bailed out on me few days ago, tsk. thus, i've updated at eljaay. hoho!

anyway, currently in MIP. it'll always be on MIP module that i'll update, lol. she's talking about thermal properties of polymer, something about when bridge expand. tsk. everyone doesn't seem to pay attention. what's more, only like a handful of DCHEM E students are in class. lol. later will be having AIDS/STD talk. yes. will be attending that. i don't know about the other events, tsk! everyone's yawning like that. *yawns*

this is so boring. gawdd! entertain me eyy. i feel like eating instant noodle. haha. omg. LKY just caught us all. lol. she was like, "those who never come today, good luck to them. those who came, but playing computer..." lol. omg, jacemon's polyethylene bag. inside got hotdog yet she's murdering the bag, haha! & she didn't return the bag & food! HAHAHA! okay, not funny -__-"

OH! many things happened past few days. on sunday was youth day celebration. i saw sue, lat, nad, zahirah, suhaidah, mahirah etc. & i got to know from sue that she was shortlisted & her interview was yesterday. insya'Allah sue! you will get into that course you wanted : D tell me how it went alright? after the event went to study with zahirah, her friend & MSN. it was really.... okayyy. kind of a lil awkward. nvm. after that i left off early to send bro back to CD. omg, i miss him already! nevermind, this friday! yay. lol.

yesterday was... alright. unexpected turn out. my mood was being dampen in the morning. however, upon meeting my friends, it was alright again, slowly. & i did the most impromtu decision yet shocking. i hand over my handphone to jericho. lol! i didn't had my handphone with me from 1200 to 1630h. omg, i felt so naked without my handphone yet at eased because i had my reasons. thanks yaww (:

& a huge thank you for the amazing gift. lol. yes, i'm wearing it (: & movie treat on me! : D

alrighty, i shall listen to the lecture, for the next 40 minutes. before that, i want to post this video which mr kong showed us yesterday. yes, i teared a lil. damn yaww, lol. see ya!

scream to the wall,

& i have no idea what is wrong with blogger. tsk. but nvm, that shan't dampen my mood (:

anyway, had my MIP presentation just now. shit, my almost to dream about came true but no. i just had the freaking urge to present today and yes, i screwed it up. really, it's never a good thing to be mad just before your presentation. you'll just end up speaking like a moron and making a fool out of yourself in front of the class. however, i don't really care laa. just have to do well for the theory base paper.

after class, met jericho & han zhen. jericho alighted first then han zhen. heh.

tomorrow will be a slack. ONOW followed by A-TO-NY lesson. so going to pay attention. hoho! then go home & sleep like oink oink.

oh! yesterday industrial visit to tuas incineration plant. yes, that place, again. i went there when i was in sec2. lol. it was funny. what's more mr joseph chan went we us together with another class. many random things happened. lol. like dannyADIK pulling my hair suddenly and he said, "i like to pull girl's hair". LOL!

waiting for a phone call. lol. & i need new books again. shiet.

NA BEI!

literally, i feel like throwing something now. i've just sent out parts by parts of the MIP Presentation slides to my group mates. yes, feel my misery. of yesterday. i went total beserk and was throwing vulgarities and suan-ing people. my people would know who i'm referring to. shit man. & now i'm having a terrible headache and i'm freaking updating this blog. ahh, shit.

7.40am meeting jericho at outram to train to school together & i'm still not asleep. joevin didi is feeling the same misery too. damn, i'm so going into class late. i will buy coffee later. yes, i shall drink it even if i hate the taste. i know the chances of it making me awake is slim, i shall still buy it. more caffine. i want to go high. there's still incineration plant visit later on in the evening. on a brighter note, mr joseph chan will be taking my class. on the superbly dark note, i'll be going home late. gaaah!

okay, that's it. i'm going to sleep now. i shall dream of cows, i shall dream of MIP presentation held next week. i shall dream of the whole class suan-ing LKY. i shall dream of jericho. i shall dream of slapping some people. i shall dream of draco malfoy. i shall dream of not having school.

i shall sleep now. night.

uhhhhmmm...

currently having break. am at the main library with my lovelaye classmates. well, only like a handful of them laa. waiting for A maths class to start at 1300. woo, maths. need to pay attention, geez.

meet atiqah yesterday. yes i was her date, lol. she was busy sms, *ehem*. lol. ate at central with her. shared so many stories. hope to see her soon again. after all, her school is 3 stops ahead of mine. hoho.

can't wait for the end of the day. yay! hahahaha.
okayy, i'm bored already. nahh, listen to this song. very the nice, well to me laa.

ciao! & i miss abg ):

[edit] "Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby"

HAHAHAHA sin ning and i have been singing that verse only since the beginning of A maths class. lol. & jun hao just asked us to shut up. LOL. hahaha. we're learning to sing that song for his birthday. haha. [/edit]

MST results,

yes, i've gotten all my MST results. those that i took last week. quite pleased, but not so pleased. nevermind. shall work harder for semester exams, which is about a month and half later. yes, yes, be very scared O.o
anyways, i only got 2 As, 1 B, 1 D and 1 E. DCP & DCHEM E students should know that the grade E has to be none other then AE&E a.k.a physics (which has all the education level topics in it). no surprise there. the paper was kind of tough however, that was the standard. nevermind mr kong, i'll do better! & stop calling me udhah can? damn unglam laa. lol.

Analytical & Physical Chemistry: 46/50 (the misery is still there)
Applied Electricity & Electronics: 17.5/50 (hoho)
Chemical Process Principles A: 26/50 (surprise surprise)
Materials In Practice: 75/100 (polymer this, polymer that)
Basic Mathematics: 81/100 (lol)

yes, i still feel sad about my A&PC. that 2 questions, 4marks, GONE. damnnn, could have been better. nevermind. shall not dwell on it. will work harder.

anyways, tomorrow will be having school at 1000. dr chia! get well soon : D today started at 1400. hoho! hmmm, should i attend school tomorrow? CPPA theory tomorrow. hmmmm...

& yes! tomorrow bro will be coming home : D shall disturb his bloody short hair. lol. he's doing well there. the food i heard, damn, it's good. hope he gain weight. but don't want him to end up like a ham, lol. will have about 2 days to disturb him every week for 2 months. yes, i miss him terribly. gawshhh.

& so far my wednesdays are filled up. just when i thought i could use it as free time. but noooo. next week i'll be having DCP talk & SPSU meeting. on the 22th i have council meeting and on the 29th i have AIDS talk and POLY 50. however, i think i'm ditching AIDS talk for POLY50. i'm not sure? eng zheng & i shall inform dr chia about it (: see, it's hard for me to have free time on wednesday. the whole of july, i can't fit any hang out time with jericho. even if i could, we would be rushing. probably in august, before fasting month would be more ideal. however, i still want to go out with him, soon. especially since HARRY POTTER & HALF BLOOD PRINCE is coming out on the 16th (which is cousin's and jun hao's birthday). pretty please?

okayy, shall go read my book, BETRAYED. yes, i know, i'm addicted to the book. i shall stop reading when i'm out with you okay? lol. reading is an addiction xD & so are you.

& unfortunately for me, and probably other polytechnic students, we have school. well, that didn't really dampen my mood. on the bright side, i was able to meet jericho. as well as getting to know some of my results from MST. actually only 2 of the papers. A&PC and Basic Maths. hmmm, hmmm, hmmm... i shall wait for the other 3 results. i'm quite satisfied with my results. yes, quite. how i wish i did the 2 wrong questions correctly, it could have been full marks. FULL MARKS. but noooo. i had to make mistakes. it's okay rau. there is still semestral exams.

i was being a good girl and went to SPSU office and read my book. managed to read up 3 chapters. had some not so good time. nevertheless, i manage to focus on reading till 1800hr. it was funny to see the way he walked. take care! (:

brother will be leaving for NS tomorrow *starts to cry like mad* i'll miss him. even if it's only for 3 freaking days. no one to stay up late with me. no one to disturb me at home. awwww. yes, i'll miss all those. sadly, i can't follow my parents to send him off since i have school. sheesh. sigh. i'll miss bro ):
OH! and my brother came out in the malay newspaper (:

i got nothing else to update. i want to talk to someone. but i can't. because the person probably has gone into lala land.

goodbye. damn random post.

& i'm not supposed to be here,

& yes, 3 papers down. 2 more to do. & i've not done full revision for AE&E. ahh hell. i don't care about capacitors laa. pray i will remember. *starts chanting the formulas for charging & discharging*

yes, i've changed my blog skin. i hope the fonts are big enough? ahahks. & i like this blogskin. i still my old one though. i know, i know. i'm not supposed to be here , as stated above. but i have nothing else to do. no, i've had it for AE&E. that is because it has maths. & the past 3 papers that i've taken, they all have maths. even tomorrow's & friday's paper contain maths. it's all maths maths maths. don't really see much of science. geez.

i can't wait for friday. last paper, POLYMER! yessah! then will party like mad. okayy no. but i will become a secretary for the day. help type type things, lol. i will survive (:

alright, that's all for now. need to rest. paper's at 0830hr tomorrow, yikes! i'm going to put myself into kongcussion mode *class joke*. that way, i'll be well prepared, or i thought so :P

2 birthdays, consecutively...

today's the 27th. since i was busy webcamming almost the whole afternoon and was literally bored, i couldn't be bothered to update. now that i am just that bit active after coming home from dinner/supper with my family, i think i'm able to update. as said earlier, today's the 27th. means...

HAPPY *insert double digit* ABAH! ♥♥


he & my mum so cute laa. i love you a lot okay (: though i don't have any gifts, literally, for you on your birthday (bad bad daughter), but the best gift i can ever give is me doing well in my tests, since secondary till now, till whichever education level i can achieve. though i can be an ass at times, but i really love you. nothing beats having a dad like you even if you are strict. & thank you for all the awesome talks we had whenever i come home from school and complain to you about almost everything that happened in school. i love you, abah (': happy birthday again : D

and tomorrow's the 28th. so...

HAPPY 17th SHAMIRA DEAREST : DD

*sorry i took it from your blog*

it's been long since i saw her. well she's taking Os this year, so all the best in mugging for Os and taking the Os (: JIA YOU! see you around (: ♥

& tomorrow shall the last day i'm paying back my fast. yessah! & i know, i know, very the late laa. ahahks. but heyy, i managed to pay them all right (: & it shall be studying day for me, again. geez. MST week starts this monday, 29th all the way to friday, 3rd july. which is BM's 17th birthday and PRCS 10th anniversary. damn, my bro is going. sheesh. must tell me how it went horr!

alright, shall turn in now. i miss my book. nevermind, at least i'm able to tell myself to study and not read. CPPA and MIP and Basic Maths. ohgawddd! need to buck up on them. i've spent too much time on chemistry and physics (well more on chemistry). so it's time i give the other 3 modules more attention. JIA YOU RAU! sigh.

ohh, by the way, the world already know that the king of pop passed away yesterday (singapore time). of course it was a shocked for us all.
his songs are all awesome. and i still remember when in sec2, danced to the song, BEAT IT. lol. catchy song. i doubt anyone can replace his spot and the king of pop. even if there is, it won't be the same. R.I.P michael jackson.

alright, i better turn in. night.

& experience of a life time,

& yesterday i enjoyed my afternoon/evening. i was a happy girl : D

watched ghosts of girlfriends past. yes, i know, slow. however, i did enjoy the show.
& your eye socket is mine okay if you are like that xD

anyway, after that headed for Singapore Flyer : DD the hightlight of the day. yes, cheapo us. S$10 for students during the June holidays. so... grab the opportunity laa. LOL. there weren't many people, probably because it was raining. had the whole capsule, A4, to ourselves. okay, i was like jakun/suaku. take picture here and there, ahahks. feeling feeling tourist a bit. however, the ride was okay. better than some other ferris wheel i took.

after the approximate 30mins (i think it was 30mins but it felt shorter because we were talking & taking pictures... a lot) got off the capsule and went to see our photograph. it was nice, except my body blend in with the background given as i was wearing green. lol. but they managed to change it to maroon, which is nice (: we bought the wallet size photograph which was a bomb, 25bucks. gawddd! till now i'm still shocked by it. lol. however, it was kind of worth it to us, just this once. haas. memory laa.

overall, the day went smoothly. all went according to the plan (:

i think i better turn in now. i do not have my book with me. so i can't read tonight. or the following day. all the way till monday. nevermind2. i shall study then (:

night.

when they came to life,

& i'm currently watching Night at the Museum on RCTI : D i'm supposed to be asleep right now (i know i know) however, i just can't. one, i want to watch night at the museum. two, i'm going to have supper since i'll paying back my fast. 3 more days left baybeh! woo.

anyway, i didn't know that yesterday, was fathers' day. i mean, it felt like a normal day to me. since i didn't really go out. i only went out at night to eat, yummy!

anyway, i wanted to blog about a local show i watched just now, Angel. it was a really touching show, on fathers' day. gawdd, i can tear on the spot. it really, ohgawdd, taught me how to appreciate my dad. and how lucky i am. i'm no gambler but at times we gamble our lives, in a way. to try out things (good things). like a certain guy would say, "what's life without a risk?" hence, we are lucky. to love and to be loved. to have second chance at things that we messed up when we wanted it so much, not the negative things of course. it was really a touching show. if they show it again on air, i would definitely watch it. for the first time, i think, i loved a local show this much. lol. but seriously, it's a nice show to watch (: plus! nat ho is hot hot hot : D

i think that's all i have to blog about? i still have yet to start on my revision for MST. lol, i've done too much for A&PC, but i'm still not to the level of expectation. shiet. however, i should be worrying about my A Maths plus CPPA and AE&E. oh! and MIP too. too much to put in the brain. but they're managable, i think. *chants mug mug mug*

& i can't wait for wednesday. Singapore flyer x3! : D
i want to bring ken along!

okay, i want to eat something.

14th & 15h, & it gets better, i think.

i told myself to update early today but due to me, being outside till 1600hr & resting like a pig till 1900hr, i have to update at a later time of the day. however, it don't matter.





see the bigger picture? see the guy in red? yes he's my brother. no, he's not chinese. & yes, i love him to bits. he turns 20 today. one more freaking year & he has his freedom. ohmygayy, i have to wait for another 4 years for that to happen. however, it's okay, i still love the life i'm having now ^_^

anyway, the two small pictures were the few that were taken yesterday. the adults & the kick ass cousins. yes, they rock like hell. first time we had that kind of big group photo : D i love them all!

had gathering-cum-birthday/anniversary celebration dinner at orchid country club. the food were awesome! we ate so much that we literally got full. then... someone (i forgot who) suggested we play this particular game. ohmygayy, i tell you! i lost in that game before & the forfeit was to drink up this avocado + coconut drink which looked horrible, well, cause the color looks like shiet. & yesterday we played it again. this time, 9 people. we played with much enthusiasm as we do not want to be the loser and eat up the chosen plates. haha. unfortunately for me, i lost, yet again. & hazwan was like, "rau tak yah main lagi laa. 2nd time kalah" like what the heck, lol. my bro was the 2nd loser and hafiz was 3rd. so we each were given a plate or bowl of the unfinished vegetables and have to finsih it up. i was lucky to get the nice one. HEHE! although i had problem swallowing it and need to wash it down with water. after that they played again till we had a sole winner, which was hariz, who doesn't eat veggies... AT ALL, or maybe a lil but ya, he was lucky enough. while the rest of us had to eat, ahahks. our parents were laughing at us because we were all like scared freaks when playing the game. LOL.

after that had birthday cake. OREO CHEESECAKE! yummy! it was to celebrate brother's 20th, dad's.... shall not disclose it & my parents' 21st anniversary. yes yes, all in the month of june. hehe.

after everything, got out of the restaurant &... camwhored, literally. this is the first time my cousins all are cam-freaks. really. we never had so much fun taking pictures & we decided to have a cousin picture. hehe.

after everything, we left for home. i love my family & cousins : D
can't wait for the next gathering. teehee ♥

as for today, somehow my morning didn't turn out right, but it's okay (:
after that went to had my picture taken for my passport & headed home to take my studying materials & head down to hougang. studied till 1200hr & had lunch at LJS : D *ahh, bully people somemore, see what happen, hehe* then went to meet derek & toured around hougang. oooo, monfort junior & secondary are two nice buildings : D i like. however, i was kind of amused upon hearing one of the visitors' rules. but, true true. lol.

after that derek left to meet fauzi & the rest & we continued our walk all the way to buangkok area there. just kept on talking and talking. funnaye (:

head home after that & slept for a while but i slept till 1900hrs & managed to only teach my cousin for about 10mins. lol. my bad. will be a better tutor next time xD

overall, the days are fun. i love them. can't wait for 17th & 18th : D


OH! before i go...

HAPPY 22nd TO ABG DANI :DD
ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE ENDAVORS :D

nights (:

bad bad blogger for the night,

& when mummy literally tells you not to mix with bad kids, it's simply because they can get pretty vulgar. much vulgar than you expected.

i'm at the verge of becoming one of those vulgar kids simply because some people are just too much of a heartless freak and thinks they are the only ones with feelings. ironic much. go F. yourself upside down.

i feel like telling you off. let me the bad kid for once, please.

*points middle finger & starts cursing*

let's not dampen my mood, even though it already is.
however, i dare to say this. i don't care if you are reading this. like as if you will but if you do, don't get too worked up.

i'm so happy i'm smarter than you. i'm so happy i get into a science course. i'm so happy our points are far apart because i had the last laugh. i so don't give a fcuk if you're hot because your attitude is not. it's shiet i should say. & i so am glad you are stupid : D oh, i forgot to mention. it's only you i'm looking down on, for an ITE student like you.


shiet, i'm an SMACT blogger today. oh gawd. no no!
look on the bright side, rau. tomorrow you'll be blogging as happily as you could. & hell yea i'm going to.

good night (:

& it may look gay laa the video but i find it rather cute (:
OH! & i so love her white gown as well as her band uniform (minus the hat!)

& 5yrs from now, when pebble returns, we're so going to own the world! ;D

& i won't come back, bleeding love,

today is rather a... umm... tiring day. yes. somehow mochachinno (sp?) didn't do its work & to make it worse, the taste of it was so, bleargh. i think i'll stick to normal coffee or latte? latte doesn't contain espresso thingy thingy right? hmmm...

anyway, went to do my formal report from 0800hr till about 1100+ hr? about there. 3 hours & i've completed... not much. sadly for me. however, i agree, that it's better to do the report with a friend as we can help one another. even though my answers didn't really make sense? i just need to get over & done with my report & i can start doing others. yes yes, many projects at hand. as well as MST revision. SHU & JAS! study soooon : D

after that basically just walk around and round and round. mann, cityhall is not as big as i thought it was O.o anyway, we got tired & were losing energy. gawdd, how morning can really take away much of our energy. lol. however, the quote for the day that makes us joke about almost anything we can think of...
" pork... you know babi? "
okay, you have to hear what happened in order to get the joke. after that, left for home.
thank you for sending all the way to the east though you alighted 2 stops earlier & had to head back to cityhall. thank you thank you thank you! : D

& finally! tomorrow whole day at home. after being out since morning & going back in the evening, 4 days straight, i had to turn down the class movie outing since, i don't feel too good :/ however, will be tutoring my cousin in the evening. as long as i stay put at home tomorrow & rest, i should be fine. my brain's going to be working a lot this month O.o

on saturday, went out with shab & rre. & like what i said at rre's facebook (yes she has one, hoorah! lol). whenever i'm out with them & we take pictures, my hair will be shortest of them all. next want to take, make sure my hair long okayy. gawdd, i miss my long hair & my fringe *chants "grow fringe grow" * however, we had fun. read up rre's blog. haas (:

on sunday, tagged along to sentosa. ohhgayy, felt paisey. however, it turned out to be very fun. very hyper people. i like! oh! went for desperate shopping spree. walk here & there like a mad woman, pulling my partner along. & i got the things i needed at cheap price! ohmygayy, hakka! haha, no laa. once that, ate at pastamania then went around and headed home. tireddddddd~

yesterday, yet another awesome day. school in the afternoon. had MST mock test. after that headed to kallang to meet up with nicholas, amanda, ariffin and duncan. all of them were from school too. headed to nic's condo & a few were already there. gawdd, EXCO outing was awesome urhh. darren's cooking is the best! though i didn't try his chicken which were marinated by sarah mummy (: izzaty's spicaye stingray was the bomb too. i did have an enjoyable evening with them all (: & thanks to nicholas, i'm going to give guitaring another shot.

well, i better get going. have to rest but for the first time (i think,) dad told me to wake up late. lol. awesome.

good night!

& today marks 2yrs the day i met you for the first time. i know you long forgotten it. idc. i don't miss you. i know i don't because i told myself so. what happened to the A.S i thought won't turn away from friendship? 090607...