today LEPAK punya la gerek. hahas. a new member was added. itu pun because me and friends ajak. hahas. gerek sey today one. more lively. haiis, ibu kamu boleh bergurau-senda yarh bersama kamu(?) sweet. hahas. then the orang mabuk. *open mouth* what only that guy. *giggles* rabak sey we laugh today. so many fun moments. hahas. bobo it's true. when normal days we tak rapat and go crazy. but bila exams, lepak brudder/sister. hahas. siapa ajar ah that(?) hehe. *thinking*...

today paper was easy i guess. actually i did struggle a little. on the bina ayat. they totally slip out of my mind sey. i don't know what happen. haiis, i think i'm going to flop. boleh suddenly almost all the BASICS faded from my brain. ALLAH! but what's done, done. down to one paper. home economics. ala, i want to fail that paper ah. haiis...


hey, um sorry ah tadi i became cold towards you over the telephone. i didn't mean to. i know i jump to conclusion. i know i shouldn't have. and see i told you, you won't know if i'm truly happy or sad. even when i was laughing like crazy with my friends, i wasn't truly happy. i never reveal my true feelings. so don't try me. blueek. hahas.


ala hai, farah farah, lain kali don't tell the whole world ok? tapi kali ini saya diam. and it's NOT i stead with matin bin othman. must say with slang. hahas.what only raudhah.
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i was being unfair towards you
i was being cold towards you
i never gave you the love that you gave me
i never achieve what you told me to
i almost lost the person i love
i almost let go of the guy i wanted
i kept my feelings inside
i kept nothing else inside
i reach out for your hand
i reach out for the love we had
what i wanted in life appeared
what i wanted forever disappeared
why was it destined to be like this
why was it destined that i be like this
our hand collided when we first got together
our love grew when we got together
what does all this mean(?)
what does all this really mean(?)
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whatever i did just now was crap. hahas. i go jiwang mood. don't what's got into me. haiis. ok i now want to go smash my fucking guitar. hahas. troots troots out-sie...

ok ok currently i'm trying to practice playing the fucking guitar again. so long never practice. i'm not even close to fair. it's ATROCIOUS. haiis.
gawd! that ITE guy freaking me out. no offence, already good you patch back with ex-ex. but then sekali like you serang me. scary. *shivers* gawd! farreha! teach me play guitar! my hands seems to not to coordinate well. same as drum. haiis. matin ajar saya main drum yarh? hahas.
gawd! operation on finding the 20bucks failed. i like traced back all the steps. yet didn't see it. someone must have kebas it. oh wells. whoever you are, you are lucky. by the way, haiis, me and matin? together? hahahas. never in a life time.[ehem(:] hahas.
tomorrow malay paper two. dang! my maths i lost 17 marks already. that's a LOST CASE! i fail maths. urgh! it's was bloody hard. the only part i tried and could do, i guess, was the algebra solve, expand and factorise. i think of matin only, *POOF* i can do. so did rre. sweet. hahas.shit my brother come home! nevermind. hahas. this thursday go visiting yarh? clueless raudhah. hehe.
hanisah don't look emo or what. must stay happy. smile2 yarh?
i wonder. hmmm, where is the message in the bottle now? hahas. cheeky raudhah. but i'm NOT cheeky. whatever.
eh why my brother and matin have the same attitude? love to pinch my cheek la then the way they dress also the same[not in a sense], behave almost the same. but one thing is not is that my bro is really into soccer. matin? i don't know. hahas. but resassure, they are so alike. maybe they twins ehk. because people DO mistook them for chinese. haiis... matin my brother? hahas. firdaus is a sure one. hahas.
eh sampai sekarang tak reply2 budak itu. kamu marah ya? atau sengaja tidak mahu? atau...
sebaliknya? hmmmm...
i'm not jealous, ok maybe a bit. but i can't do anything kan. so, like always, raudhah will always let whatever be, be. just let it happen. gawd! so many history of 2005 is repeating itself. don't you think?
by the way, one day, i'm going to the park and liquid of what we friends did to the innocent pillar. yarh? kekeke...
okies i want to go eat... SALAMI PIZZA. *mouth watering* yummy.

ok so there was NO ngaji again. Gawd! i'm so going to have to catch up. sorry ya ustazah? haiis. and i went to study had to wear TUDUNG! because i thought ah lepas study terus go ngaji. sekali no ngaji. and.... I LOST THE DUIT YURAN!!! 20bucks! currently eating instant mashed potato. hahas. tomorrow maths and english paper 2. haiis... eh matin! your head ah i want to take your money! it's ok, ok? i'll FIND a way, i hope so, to get the 20bucks. maybe tomorrow i go there and find. haiis... how can i NOT realise it was MISSING??!! haiis, retribution. hahas.didn't had time to eat. so now i eat la. haiis...
wah just now after lit. paper go central as usual routine. hehe. then we all laugh like what sey at the void deck. semangat sak. then got jiwang-ers tau. consist of bobo, haikal and umar[he not so]. hahas.
ok so here i am in front of the bloody computer screen updating my damn blog and go to the usual webbies. also eating and smsing hanisah and matin.
hahaha!!! haikal jamari. close answer yet so far. i NEVER stead with matin sec.4/2 alright?!! get that in your damn bloody brain!!! urgh! make my blood boil only. hahas. ok i'm crazy. hmmms, ok ah malas nak update lagi.
by the way, FARAH!!! oh my gawd! im so jealous sia! you get to see husni sing. hanisah, my dad say because only two people so cannot go. bloody hell. sial ah i BET husni looks HOT! hahas. i guess that's all.
Hawaii dance, Bay Watch and Techno Pub. hahas.
Helmet proof and coconut substituition. hahahahahahaha...