i've tolerated enough with all the shiets you have. i was kind enough to always give in to you. all your shiets i pass it. and this is what i get in return. wow! so what does this prove? well, you think about it! what if i were to do this to you. i can you know. anytime. you name me the day and set the time. i can GLADLY do.

this is what you get it people pijak your kepala habis-habis. it's irritating and KNN. urgh! you know what. just carry on with your pathetic actions and see if i care. i don't give a shiet anymore alright. all this was just plain bullshit! numerous times i was patient with all your shiets. and now, this is what i get. what brain wave signal is your brain sending to your other body parts. huh?! what more do you want to do. i almost cried yesterday. but i held back my tears. whatever ok shiet. grrr...

yes. i'm a SMACT kind of blogger. what does it mean? go figure out yourself dumb. i don't usually say nice things to please people. i hurt them. i don't give a shiet to people like that someone. all your pathetic sayings all are plain PUII! ok enough of that bugger. grrr...

no logical sense maths equation.
black + black = orangeybrown.
WOW isn't it. that's why i fail my maths. urgh! lepas satu. alahai.

singapore : 1. thailand : 1. alamak! insya'allah singapore will win. BAIHAKKI!!! nyehs.

valentine's day is just 2weeks away! woo. why saya happy about it? nevermind.

ok i've said enough. i'm still panas dalam with that bugger. how much more pathetic can you be. bloody fcuk.

SAY NO MORE

partyly tormented.
greatly in anger.
fully in control.
many patience.

feel like slaughtering you.

don't try too hard can.

camp PAMOJA. boring? fun? just ok2? in between those, yes. the food were nice. well, what other options of food do i have besides those that we had for breakfast, lunch, dinner & supper? oh wells. DAY 1- DAY 3 of camp PAMOJA.

day1

reach MOE labrador camp area. received the bedsheets & pillowcases. then went to our respective dorm. dorm 15(!!) second floor. then had games. funny. then had lunch, chicky&veggie. nice. continued with games. had preparations for campfire. had dinner, chicky&veggie. then campfire!! mrONG&his son made it for the campfire. he lit up the fire (macam paham nye lighting). then had songs. then performances in between (IGALA!!! shafiq!!!). lit up candles. then campfire ended. had supper, bun. then change and NOT hit the sack. but called home. chatted. around 0000hrs then i hit the sack. every 1/2-1hr i'll just wake up. coolness like... antarctica?

day2

rise&shine (even before the Sun's up). bathe. then cleared things abit. then went to MPH, then dismissed to have breakfast, samosa, cuppycake & that white thingy with black sauce (i loike). then had games first. JIA QING(correct spelling?) rock! then had lunch, chicky&veggie. then had mini amazing race. went out of camp area to labrador park. the clues were... wtf. 2nd was killing my team's hopes. finally found it. jia qing was so sporting. love ya gundu! going back to camp area was that ok. talked about the people's previous night duty. astarghfirullallah. had dinner, chicky&veggie. then had MUMBO JUMBO. danced to the song hips don't lie. loike-y the moves. then supper, potato puff. then talked to that particular someone. alone (with fiq&nad tagging with me. thanks). then went back to dorm15. tried calling home. finally managed. talked, and i was forced (thanks yea, you) to sleep. as i had night duty at 0215hr. so hit the sack. was that bit rushing for night duty cause afraid late. boys were heavy-sleeper. so we girls did that duty. keep trying to wake the boys up everytime pass their dorm d, DELTA. failed. someone did woke up. but, haiyoosh. allhamdulillah didn't encounter or saw anything unusual like the night before. then after that, HIT THE SACK BAYBEH. slept like baby.

day3

rise&shine at 0600hr. went to wash up. lucky still not many people. so had the long luxury of bathing. pack bag. then head to MPH. then had breakfast, beehoon&popiah. then went to do last packing and cleaned the canteen area. then went back to dorm, take our bags and headed to MPH. while waiting for the inspection of the area, ma&nadrah slept. sempat ok. very tired. then had prize presentation. we won 4!! 2 was thorphy and the other 2 was best tribal ritual&roar. syafiq rules ok. sean is hottie. haha. then was being dismissed and off we were back to eastern. back to pasir ris baybeh. PRCS home! then done.

it was ok ah. that's all. thanks ...... for talking things out with me. thank you. i'm just scared. thanks. remember you younger than me by.... i forgot. nyehs. ok i'm done. and thanks qamarina for lending me your sim card yea. owe you big one.

OUT.

pics will be up soon.

3days 2nights COMPUTER-LESS, handphone-less [maybe], teddy-less &.... 446-less. well, camp PAMOJA is going to be a fun one. i HOPE. oh wells.

the song really makes me laugh till i almost roll on the floor just now. thanks iqa!! i really had a good. no, not good. WONDERFULLY DISASTROUS laugh. HAHAHAHA. funny sia. i've got the song now. shhh...

i slept in class again. 3periods. all diff. teacher. hehe.


sleepy.
hungry.
missed.

lightstick : bought.
stupid plaster set : bought.
a pair of candles : bought.
flip flops : (??)
cap : (??)
i'm pretty much that prepared for the camp. only, should i bring my hp there? hmmm, if so, who will i sms seys? hmmm...
3 days 2 night camp at LABRADOR. wow!
i'm done.

step by step it rebuilt by itself.
bit by bit it healed on its own.
time to time it got shattered again.

now...

step by step it's healing.
bit by bit it's mended.
time to time it'll stay strong.

heavenly missing.
greatly missed.

the words i speak now carries it's own meaning.the tears i shed now falls with it's own reason.

raudhah + boredom = whatever she just type above :)
729264 968 :)

camp PAMOJA

igala/igalas/lion/lions(?)
your pick.
sounds like igloo.

erase you off.
disappear if you could, please.

macam paham je.

it's pathetic and funny to see someone going "i'm officially someone's girl". and before that they'll go...

"you're mine no matter what",
"you're hot, please be mine",
"he's the one for me",
"i'm lost without you, so be mine".

it seems so the... i don't know. i laugh to it though. i mean, what more would they say? prfft.

tired.
bored.

why didn't i go TP open house today??! it's always the case la. you long-distance-mind-reader *winks*. always going to the places that i wish to go. ishd.

happy 9th.

does the two digit number still counts?

dropped.
smashed.
tantrum.

forgiveness.

sleep. zZzZzZz.

some people just can't really get a life. prfft. how much more pathetic can you be? urgh! big structure only. stooooooopid-O. prfft. you can shut up boy-with-lazy-butt. prfft. i'll stay shut dumb!

debate.
back of classroom.
one major topic.

YOU GOT IT (:

7 free periods (if you include self-study) today. learn only one lesson for 1/2 hour. this is what i call school :) teehee.

tired.
crazy.

working hard.

it'll never happen again.

PROMISE!

not literally a maths equation but it does add up to it.

crying hard + getting drench in the rain
= having fever but not at a high temperature but body feels warm & is having the most irritating sore throat in the universe
ancestors of all sore throats.

*groan*

LOST.

how much longer (?) :(

REFLECT!

YES, i can do it!

saya akan bukti kepada kamu ya.
i'll do all the best i can. ok?

PLEASE (?)

MISSED

gundu.
what the hell?!
saddening.

SORRY, please ):

coughing.
sleepy.
hungry.

MISSING.

sick.
lost.

SORRY, please (?)

/reflecting
hoping/

MISSED

drenched
sleepy
bored
moody

regrets

just for iqa, i'll update. literally two words's ok what. ishd. nyehs. anyways, today the weather is being so depressed. cry cry cry. what only. stupid, cry after we run 6rounds. haiyoosh. nevermind. it's good for the weather to cry. at least it'll hid the tears i cry. opps...

school was ok. i slept for 1hr in chemistry period, yesterday, and malay today. it was nice ok. but i was still listening to what teacher was teaching ok. and... nevermind. what only cikgu. haiyoosh. i'm a heavy sleeper ok. but i'll get tired easily. boos. so i told my physics teacher, ms lim, that i slept in class and told her to help me stay awake (:

nizam! very well done of getting me drench eyhs. tsk3! and i'm still not done with my killing on you alrights. nyahaha.

nadrah, sorry just now like sedih ah. hehs, you know ah. boos. and npcc boys rocks ok. especially edmund. vulgarities TAK MAHU KALAH! lucky i'm not that vulgar. woohoo. and... never spin your books infront of... shhh... haha! stupid seys radhi, ridhwan and abgfee. tengok ah! korang nya pasal the boy came to us. i had to cabut, so did edmund and nadrah layan him. ishd seys. but, nevermind. babi seys. boos. if only you were there. &! i just ask for a yellow highlighter. A yellow highlighter. ONE only. and three people are like "yellow highlighter? jap aku ader". aper dah. funny seys. i ask from one person, three people offer the highlighter. thank you eyhs. all the people are fun fun ok.? kakaisyah, i shall never go anywhere near wherever that zam guy is. haiyoosh izzat.

if only he was there too. haiyoosh.

ok i'm done iqa. boos. hehs.

confuse.

missed.

shed tears

i think i should just post a phrase post from now on. i'm really tired to post one long or short fucking paragraph or post or whatever it is called. ya i think i should do that. i mean why blog about what happen in your life when you know sometimes it won't help releasing the evil or good from your body. so one word or a phrase is good enough :)

am a GONER

one phrase...


HORRIBILY REGRETTED.

hello.


CCA open house was TIRING but FUN! sec.5`07 fun fun. crazy people (:

kakliyana, kakayn, jonathan, cheryl, vanessa, kenneth, malik came back. teehee. well, the pioneer batch promote band. COOL sia!

and... MDM SURIATI CAME!!! i miss her so much. i hug her the moment i saw her. she toos. i miss her so much. the best teacher in primary school. yea mdm su. i never paid attention during your music lessons last time. now i'm in a music CCA. BAND!!! muahahahaha. fun fun.

we played montevallo, moon-y, the ford mustang song and montevallo again. i was trembling alright when i was playing the bells. but I DID IT! i can play the parts that i couldn't get it right when in band room. hmpf.

band practice.. also on SATURDAY till SYF finish??!! wahhh!! but it's ok. at least keluar juga. nyehs. booyea.

overall, today was ok but not ok. so yea. i'm done blogging. it's getting kind of lame yaww. boos.

i only have one thing to say.

you came to band :))

ok that's lame. sobxx. i miss jonathan, 2/8`06, sitting at the back with me and ben tan. now it's still me and ben tan. plus shafiq and samuel. oh dear. i miss the stupid talk sia. i talk my eyes small. eyh my eyes ok what when i talk. you are the one. when talk only, eyes become BIG BIG. what only sia you. and i shall never remember about that eww-ish thing. me & anna saw it you dumbo! ishd. rui yuan is very kind and friendly. i loike. and ben tan, that's so mean and cool of you to create that song. sheesh. puppy face. hehs. school was fun la. english rock. malay, boleh tahan. SS, COOL. you can find kereta kerbau, bullock cart, at.... not orchard, pasir ris. but.... at... VIVO CITY! nice going ben tan for saying out loud. hehs. SS fun seys. me and ben created a new sickness. prataholic. hehe. nice one eyh. it's fun ah sitting at the back and talking to all these people. han zhen is surprising nice to ask for answers. hehs. jonathan, my newspaper carrier partner, padan your muke! ben tan my turty looky after partner. ben khoh, the nonsense but funny partner. anna my tissue fall but thought it was... partner. rui yuan my very kind and friendly and forever smiling and talking partner :))

eyh jonathan, jason & ben tan, next time i smack every single one of your asses ok. i want to try ok. since you all talk dirty at the back when i'm A girl and the ONLY one at the back and you guys talk dirty and smack asses. i smack... baru tau. anna, we are clean girls alright. nice nice class. i loike :))

it was a very good way to start schooling yesterday. got caught for colored hair. one expression. WOO! that's all i can say. serious. i mean, wow, i was caught, for the first time. and it was for inappropriate grooming. nice-y. so i was pulled out. then had to be sent home, go dye back and come back to school. people thought i was playing truant sia. what only. but it was ok ah. thank you ms ong [npcc teachcer], for letting me go to class. i think i was the last to arrive. or was it maine? nevermind. hehs. and my friends, the seniors, some, and the sec3s, some, laugh cause i got caught for my colored hair. is it funny when raudhah get caught cause of colored hair? i'm killing chipmunk. you know who you are. booos. well the class rock. ms junainah was goodies. hehs. i sat in between the BENS. wow isn't it? it's nice sitting at the back. woots. hehs.

today, ok i guess. except, P.E. bleargh. but good ah. tak ya duduk bawa matahari yang panas terik tu. boos. hehs. cross country's going to be held at BEDOK RESERVIOR?? and not at pasir ris park, carpark A??!! mana boleh gitu. i'm used to the route at pasir ris park seys. and kalau hilang pun tak ya susah panic. just walk sesat-ly whatever, you'll find a way out no matter what. boos. i remember someone told me, her school had cross country at BR there. one budak hilang cause all the flags had been removed. the flags were to guide the students of the running route. ape da. BR?? urgh. nevermind ah. that means i can find time to lepak longer. hehs.

SS was fun. hehs. ben tan and i named by turtle pencil box, turty. you know dogs are called doggy. so we name my turtle, turty. hehs. jakun sia we all. the both ben GEREKS. plus the sesat boy at the other end, budak 2/8. the guy in front BK was kind and friendly. sheebee. hehs. i bully han zhen too much. sure not ben tan, han zhen innocent? sure not? hehs. maths was NICE! the teacher talks fast, that's coolies. what's more, she teaches swiftly and it's understandable. hehs. hehs. lit was ok i guess. i think i should learn to love lit. woo. insya'allah. MT was a killer. i sat behind with umairah. then i draw draw on my file which is the same with nadrah, my twin. hehe. then finish school.

sec3s finished first. of course sec1 went home at 1pm. then sec3, followed by sec.2 then the graduatig classes. hehs. oh yes, ade cikgu ask "sekarang firdaus ambil course ape?" wah, so the normal talk ah. hehs. and i can say my bro was stupid for getting into that course. but i'm proud of him. he's really doing well in that course. go BRO!! woo! now i wonder, how does cikgu know he's my bro? hmm...

i love love my tuition ok? physics abit uncomfortable. cause the teacher's a male and i'm the only one in it. suppose to be two students. but i was alone for the first course. chemistry is love love. it was easy to understand seys. and i complete three chaps in physics of unit SATU. chemistry till crystallization. and it's so making me love love love chem ok. just one thing, will i be the only melayu there?? boos.

rre, you don't have to be paiseh la. i just open back my blog lerx. baru two days ago. and she can laugh that hard. wah, ishd. hehs.

ok, so i start blogging. i don't know why i did. but i did. so ya. tomorrow's the opening of school. good? bad? i don't know. ok ok. have to go out.

i still don't know why i start blogging back. but i did.