wootay! hahas. i'm in good mood nowadays. depression days over i guess? wootay!
hmmms, why do people [mostly girls] slash? i know i was one of them last time urhs. but why ah? i still don't get it. ok, for girls like RGS, some do slash. for a reason. they damn stressful. serious. but in a mix school like PRCS, nothing is stress. except if you got bugged by ms wong's maths worksheets and stuffs every single school day. other than that, it's relaxing abit urhs.
i'm still thinking why. WHY PEOPLE?? hmmms... honestly, it's gross taus. and disgusting. in time to come, the hand that we slash right, will be very disgusting. worse than old people wrinkled skin. it's to the extreme horribility. serious.
why does she still do it then? seriously it's damn gross. and honestly, i have phobia of horrible shapes and colors. it really made my hairs stood up. does she feel the pain?
the term slashing means wants attention to her isit? hmmms, well that doesn't make sense at all. but still! why she do?! should i kesiankan her? it's really sad and angry to see her be like that.
so many people anniversary coming. tomorrow alone is RRELIFF 14mths. then next is F:29:F 7mths. then NISKIM 2mths. 30july is something for me. hehes. bad seys. but will it happen? hmmms...
oh yes today maryam's birthday. happy birthday!
now that everything is back to normal [i guess so], common test is on. left two more paper next week. then VAMOOOSH! hahas. i hope i do well urhs.
i clearly don't know what's happen to the people around me. seriously. i'm in my own world with my group of happy crazy friends [yani all]. smile2 okies people :)
saya ♥ awak banyak2. where's my hot apple pie? nyeh2. anything decreasing whatever, no more reason or what, you know what you have to do. nyeh2. after that, you can sambung ah. lepas all the stress are done. alright? smile2.
note to self : umm, eat next time and don't starve?... hehes.
Friday, July 21, 2006
wootay! hehe. today was so much for ''quality time'' with you yarhs. but neverminds ok. smile2. and i'm going to burn your shirt. because you know why? because it smells so nice that i want it not to kill me into smelling it. nyeh2. crap larx me.
today was Racial Harmony Day. nothing of it. only that some teachers wore traditional clothes. what onlys. tomorrow is the home stay thingy. too bad i'm not involved. but it's kind of good not to be involved. *sniggers*
i cabut-ed from band at 1700hrs like that. then i talked with azmeera all. melissa is such a darling. hahas. then i talked with chi wai and abg nazeeb. fun larx those two. crazy. i shan't talk to you guys anymore. i totally DON'T KNOW you guys. i won't be dirty ok! and oh yes.. go rape him all you want. hahas. but NOT my teddy bear. blueek.
his shirt is still with me. i love the smell on it. totally love it. that's why i love him. haiis, many people getting to know about it. ohmigod!
will he go online? haiis...
today was Racial Harmony Day. nothing of it. only that some teachers wore traditional clothes. what onlys. tomorrow is the home stay thingy. too bad i'm not involved. but it's kind of good not to be involved. *sniggers*
i cabut-ed from band at 1700hrs like that. then i talked with azmeera all. melissa is such a darling. hahas. then i talked with chi wai and abg nazeeb. fun larx those two. crazy. i shan't talk to you guys anymore. i totally DON'T KNOW you guys. i won't be dirty ok! and oh yes.. go rape him all you want. hahas. but NOT my teddy bear. blueek.
his shirt is still with me. i love the smell on it. totally love it. that's why i love him. haiis, many people getting to know about it. ohmigod!
will he go online? haiis...
Saturday, July 15, 2006
so here i am now, in the middle of the night, blogging. i'm not in a good mood. yesterday, something terrible happen. i shan't fully post what happened.
it really hurts and sucks when you're called a friend snatcher. i mean for GOD SAKE! it's a FREE WORLD! she can befriend whoever she wants to. i can mix around with whoever i want to. you can't disallow her to do what she wants. ya, admit. i'm an EMO. so what? i have my own probs. so do other people. but not all people can really take their problems. so you're putting in a sense that we EMO people are outcasted people? is that what you're put across here? and speaking of put,
DON'T PUT FUCKING RUBBISHES INTO MY MOUTH!
and oh, don't worry. i won't make you puke THANK YOU. 'coz i know i don't deserve it. but SHE does. you won't get a FUCKING THANK YOU from me if you wanted it. 'coz you didn't say a bloody thank you to HER. she deserve it but you didn't give it. she DOESN'T suck up to other people. what about you?! all glued up to someone else and SHE, just following around. you never included HER! in your msn nick all. there WASN'T even HER name! and what's worst. calling her a BITCH! she's the one willing to BEFRIEND you when you NEEDED at that time. she's the one ALWAYS there FOR YOU. she's the one that made you SMILE! and you didn't thank HER. not even a bloody thanks or what!
and oh, don't give me that ''oh i don't know what you're talking about'' bullshit reaction. you know what's wrong. but you just DON'T want to admit it. 'coz you're a COWARD! just a fucking coward! ya i admit! i'm a lamer, pathetic and a BITCH. well you know what?! it takes a BITCH to KNOW a BITCH, BITCH! so you're a better BITCH than me. go ahead. praise yourself. 'coz BITCHES like you, who are cowards, and never admit, and who think highly of themselves and NEVER appreciate a true friendship are just plain show offs. just want bloody attention. you want popularity, go ahead. no one's stoping you!
and you can't differentiate EMO and DESPO can you?! i don't go around asking people can i be their friend and once i have them, i just leave the ones that were true friends. let me give you the definition ok.
EMO ; people who often cry and get depress easily due to something traumatic or whatever crap shit.
DESPO ; people who wants something BADLY and will do or go around asking for help 'coz they need to feel like one of them.
got that?!
you say SHE suck up to people. how about you?! who cares if SHE goes around mixing with other people. it's a FREE WORLD! she is a TRUE friend. she DOESN'T leave her old ones! i DON'T make things a BIG FUSS without a reason. this time, it's YOU making LIES about me and making BULLSHITS stories. i told you nicely in the beginning to spit out everything about me you hated me befriending HER. but did you take it? nooo. you bloody fucked it all up!
you doubt i have friends? go ahead. think whatever you want. you WERE once in MY SHOE. you went around asking people to be your friend. but i didn't do that. oh no. but you DID. now when you have friends. you think people who mixed arounf with your friends are friend-LESS. two words. FUCK OFF. a TRUE friend deserves something POSITIVE in return. but you NEVER gave HER that kind of feeling. you rather go sucking and glued up to others and just make her like a follower. that's BULLSHIT ok! BULLSHIT!
i've made my stand. and btw, fyi...
THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A FRIEND STEALER.
and oh ya, you, YOURSELF, don't have basic manners. see and reflect. i know i have mine. 'coz i don't go around asking people to befriend with me.
why must people always think that i'm stealing their friend? it's not like i'm going to be glued to them. what's wrong with mixing around with others. don't ever look at the negative side of me. please...
it really hurts and sucks when you're called a friend snatcher. i mean for GOD SAKE! it's a FREE WORLD! she can befriend whoever she wants to. i can mix around with whoever i want to. you can't disallow her to do what she wants. ya, admit. i'm an EMO. so what? i have my own probs. so do other people. but not all people can really take their problems. so you're putting in a sense that we EMO people are outcasted people? is that what you're put across here? and speaking of put,
DON'T PUT FUCKING RUBBISHES INTO MY MOUTH!
and oh, don't worry. i won't make you puke THANK YOU. 'coz i know i don't deserve it. but SHE does. you won't get a FUCKING THANK YOU from me if you wanted it. 'coz you didn't say a bloody thank you to HER. she deserve it but you didn't give it. she DOESN'T suck up to other people. what about you?! all glued up to someone else and SHE, just following around. you never included HER! in your msn nick all. there WASN'T even HER name! and what's worst. calling her a BITCH! she's the one willing to BEFRIEND you when you NEEDED at that time. she's the one ALWAYS there FOR YOU. she's the one that made you SMILE! and you didn't thank HER. not even a bloody thanks or what!
and oh, don't give me that ''oh i don't know what you're talking about'' bullshit reaction. you know what's wrong. but you just DON'T want to admit it. 'coz you're a COWARD! just a fucking coward! ya i admit! i'm a lamer, pathetic and a BITCH. well you know what?! it takes a BITCH to KNOW a BITCH, BITCH! so you're a better BITCH than me. go ahead. praise yourself. 'coz BITCHES like you, who are cowards, and never admit, and who think highly of themselves and NEVER appreciate a true friendship are just plain show offs. just want bloody attention. you want popularity, go ahead. no one's stoping you!
and you can't differentiate EMO and DESPO can you?! i don't go around asking people can i be their friend and once i have them, i just leave the ones that were true friends. let me give you the definition ok.
EMO ; people who often cry and get depress easily due to something traumatic or whatever crap shit.
DESPO ; people who wants something BADLY and will do or go around asking for help 'coz they need to feel like one of them.
got that?!
you say SHE suck up to people. how about you?! who cares if SHE goes around mixing with other people. it's a FREE WORLD! she is a TRUE friend. she DOESN'T leave her old ones! i DON'T make things a BIG FUSS without a reason. this time, it's YOU making LIES about me and making BULLSHITS stories. i told you nicely in the beginning to spit out everything about me you hated me befriending HER. but did you take it? nooo. you bloody fucked it all up!
you doubt i have friends? go ahead. think whatever you want. you WERE once in MY SHOE. you went around asking people to be your friend. but i didn't do that. oh no. but you DID. now when you have friends. you think people who mixed arounf with your friends are friend-LESS. two words. FUCK OFF. a TRUE friend deserves something POSITIVE in return. but you NEVER gave HER that kind of feeling. you rather go sucking and glued up to others and just make her like a follower. that's BULLSHIT ok! BULLSHIT!
i've made my stand. and btw, fyi...
THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A FRIEND STEALER.
and oh ya, you, YOURSELF, don't have basic manners. see and reflect. i know i have mine. 'coz i don't go around asking people to befriend with me.
why must people always think that i'm stealing their friend? it's not like i'm going to be glued to them. what's wrong with mixing around with others. don't ever look at the negative side of me. please...
Monday, July 10, 2006
OMG! OMMFG! it's not true! it can't be. FRANCE LOST!! nooo.. haiis, apa already jadi ah? haiyoosh. nevermind. have to wait another four years.
today practice again. it's getting into shape i guess. i just need to get the steps right. and me and iqa had to run around the school like mad, begging the boys, from band, to loan their ties for tomorrow performance. setakat 12. but we ask 19 boys, just in case some never bring. 9teen!! hehe. the boys, in 2/5, are cooperating very the well seys. yayness.
today is england language oral for susutin. he said it was ok. so ok ah. scared for him seys. goody lucky okies :)
i got nothing much to blog about ah. ok ah. got to go for ngaji. adios-a.
today practice again. it's getting into shape i guess. i just need to get the steps right. and me and iqa had to run around the school like mad, begging the boys, from band, to loan their ties for tomorrow performance. setakat 12. but we ask 19 boys, just in case some never bring. 9teen!! hehe. the boys, in 2/5, are cooperating very the well seys. yayness.
today is england language oral for susutin. he said it was ok. so ok ah. scared for him seys. goody lucky okies :)
i got nothing much to blog about ah. ok ah. got to go for ngaji. adios-a.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Saturday, July 08, 2006
a poem i found :-
Hell is where I am, so dark, so cold, so lonely
No one else is here, I am the one and only
I sit here in the dark and think of my sad life
I should have ended it all when I had the knife
Why was I the chosen one- taken to this place?
Maybe, 'cuz to people I mean nothing, I was born the world to disgrace
I hurt inside real badly, no one cares to see my tears
I have no happy feelings in me, I haven't for 16 years.
Nothing makes me happy, that's not the way it goes
I hide all my pain with a fake smile... I'll never let it show
People will never see exactly who I am
And even if they cared to try, they'd never understand
So, for now, I'll sit here all alone, isolated from the world
forever lifeless, depressed and full of tears...
an unhappy little girl
``by Danielle O'Callaghan
Hell is where I am, so dark, so cold, so lonely
No one else is here, I am the one and only
I sit here in the dark and think of my sad life
I should have ended it all when I had the knife
Why was I the chosen one- taken to this place?
Maybe, 'cuz to people I mean nothing, I was born the world to disgrace
I hurt inside real badly, no one cares to see my tears
I have no happy feelings in me, I haven't for 16 years.
Nothing makes me happy, that's not the way it goes
I hide all my pain with a fake smile... I'll never let it show
People will never see exactly who I am
And even if they cared to try, they'd never understand
So, for now, I'll sit here all alone, isolated from the world
forever lifeless, depressed and full of tears...
``by Danielle O'Callaghan
Friday, July 07, 2006
Sunday, July 02, 2006
i have something to say...
the inside of ZOUK...
IS THE BOMB! the inside is so fucking cool. i love it to bits! serious.
when we reached, everyone was like ooo-ing and aah-ing seys. inside was dark and so cold. but cool. bad news, while i was going out of zouk, i slip and fell and hurt my lower part of the backbone! fuck! it was awfully painful. i had to be carried and i had to rest on the sofa. it was so nice. and i was shivering of coldness that i was given a MILK run shirt for free! as a substitution of blanket. and i got to keep it. nyeh2.
zikir, unfortunately came. dang! but i have to say something. zikir, thank you for being concern about me just now when i hurt my back. that was kind of you. thank you loads. sorry, i avoided you. i just can't get the old picture out yet. haiis...
matin, nazeeb, and the chinese friend,[don't know how to spell] came also. i was so happy and crazy when he could make it. nyeh2. i felt slightly safe when those three came. matin, how can you do that to your bodyguard. naughty2. see, i so kind to mine [we share same bodyguard].
me, yen soon, nadrah, sock chian, iqa, nizam like crazy people go around zouk and take pictures here and there. we make it like our place like that. so fun. laugh here and there so much-os. hahas. me, tin2 and sock chian, took ''family'' picture. nyeh2.
after the milky runny thingy, me, kak dayah, nizam, sayyid, iqa, yen soon, zikir went to downtown east mac to eat. met tin2 over there. then ate. i had to sit at the same table with that zikir seys. haiis, but i just kept quiet and ate my food. then he and sayyid shifted place. and me and tin2 had to sit alone. wahliao. then all went home.
for god sake! i LOVE ok! i TRUSTED you! everything about YOU, i love! but just know when to joke ok. you make it as though we are drifting apart. i never felt anything ever since. i felt alone. i felt... nothing. you make my life shine. you make everything in me alive again. you ARE my everything. you want to scold and shout at me, go ahead. as i DESERVE it. all i want is your LOVE and laughter. that's all i ask for. i'll tell you more next time.
the inside of ZOUK...
IS THE BOMB! the inside is so fucking cool. i love it to bits! serious.
when we reached, everyone was like ooo-ing and aah-ing seys. inside was dark and so cold. but cool. bad news, while i was going out of zouk, i slip and fell and hurt my lower part of the backbone! fuck! it was awfully painful. i had to be carried and i had to rest on the sofa. it was so nice. and i was shivering of coldness that i was given a MILK run shirt for free! as a substitution of blanket. and i got to keep it. nyeh2.
zikir, unfortunately came. dang! but i have to say something. zikir, thank you for being concern about me just now when i hurt my back. that was kind of you. thank you loads. sorry, i avoided you. i just can't get the old picture out yet. haiis...
matin, nazeeb, and the chinese friend,[don't know how to spell] came also. i was so happy and crazy when he could make it. nyeh2. i felt slightly safe when those three came. matin, how can you do that to your bodyguard. naughty2. see, i so kind to mine [we share same bodyguard].
me, yen soon, nadrah, sock chian, iqa, nizam like crazy people go around zouk and take pictures here and there. we make it like our place like that. so fun. laugh here and there so much-os. hahas. me, tin2 and sock chian, took ''family'' picture. nyeh2.
after the milky runny thingy, me, kak dayah, nizam, sayyid, iqa, yen soon, zikir went to downtown east mac to eat. met tin2 over there. then ate. i had to sit at the same table with that zikir seys. haiis, but i just kept quiet and ate my food. then he and sayyid shifted place. and me and tin2 had to sit alone. wahliao. then all went home.
for god sake! i LOVE ok! i TRUSTED you! everything about YOU, i love! but just know when to joke ok. you make it as though we are drifting apart. i never felt anything ever since. i felt alone. i felt... nothing. you make my life shine. you make everything in me alive again. you ARE my everything. you want to scold and shout at me, go ahead. as i DESERVE it. all i want is your LOVE and laughter. that's all i ask for. i'll tell you more next time.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
so now here i am. blogging. at last! have broadband! now i can glue my eyes to the computer and make them stay there for hours till they go bored.had to wake up so early just to wait for the person to come around 0900hrs to install the modem for us.then after he installed it for us, i played for like 2hrs then.... i go and sleep. tired seys. i'm a heavy sleeper. nyeh2.
then in the afternoon, after i just woke up, my bro was like nagging why cannot this la that la why i use his la this la that la. he so like panic about the wireless thingy. then he went to sembahyang, while i, the one that was grouchy after a nap but had the patience-y not to scold, did it all for my bro. and it worked. and what happen? i got nagged by my bro. and he said thanks. what only. but nevermind. now he went for soccer match.
today is maryam's mum's wedding. sorry eyh, i can't attend. but happy wishes and blessings to her (:
yesterday, the boys really had it. that's what you get if there's a teacher and me. give me attitude, i give you double. everything push to me. you think i what? matin? who can play alot of instruments? just because i girl, i'm not allowed to play the drums? is that is?! now you really got it. and leung, i don't want to talk to you about this ok! ok, honestly, my damn interest is only DRUMS! which part of that you feel i'm talking in french?! urgh! and thank you mr goh. i'm starting to like as my teacher. thank you for understanding me. fyi, he allowed me to go early because of this. thank you very much.
and benedict! nyeh2. hands up. you lose. oh so whatever i play, you don't want to play ah is it? well, now you got timpani part. oh wait. you boys play and handle whatever right? i just play percussion two and maybe some snare drum. matin! come back to band faster!!! you still owe me lessons to play on drums and timpani. but since i screwed up everything, it's just... haiis. i hate this. and someone [i know who] was obviously angry. go ahead be angry at me. because you made me do this. everything order me around. what if i order you around. i'll be like a devil's queen ordering people around like hell alright. i keep it all to myself all this while. but now, you had to let me burst it out. and... someone told leung about the incident whereby i shouted at mr ridz about my book thingy. whatthell?!! that has got NOTHING to do with this ok! urgh! i'm getting into more trouble. HELP!
haiis, tomorrow is milky runny thingy. please be there, tin2. as the other him [not 150405] but, that sick pervert [like what azri called him] WILL be there. so, you come. and i'll hand-cuff our hand together ok. nyeh2. hehe.scared and excited about tomorrow i guess. haiis. once it's done... band will go into my slacking list. meaning, i can slack and concentrate on my studies then. haiis...
but on the other hand, i don't feel like going tomorrow. like i told tin2. i'm too afraid to show my face in band. because of this. what will ever become of me?? nvm.
hmmms... ever heard of how the motorscooter, Vespa, sounds like when you are standing near them? why most indians like vespa, serious. well, i won't say it. nyeh2. jahat eyh you. and your kawan, that akmal. what only. i smack you both then tau. hahas. omg! i saw another dog. it was a sir-stanford-raffles-wannabe. hehe. if you know what i mean. and there was a smaller version too. hehe. and he had to cover my eyes so i won't think about it. i can't brainwash it off ok. it's too funny and it was on 9teen0606 ok! hahas.
hello kamu. kamu kamu, kamu duduk di dalam kelas, macam monyet kene belacan tau kamu. hahas. so that's how you sit when you are bored. very nice. i could have laughed on the spot. but i TAHAN. nyeh2. hahas.ok can't wait for tomorrow... TO END! by the way, freaky z!! give your cap can! i'm like going gaga over it! and your snickers! gawd!
then in the afternoon, after i just woke up, my bro was like nagging why cannot this la that la why i use his la this la that la. he so like panic about the wireless thingy. then he went to sembahyang, while i, the one that was grouchy after a nap but had the patience-y not to scold, did it all for my bro. and it worked. and what happen? i got nagged by my bro. and he said thanks. what only. but nevermind. now he went for soccer match.
today is maryam's mum's wedding. sorry eyh, i can't attend. but happy wishes and blessings to her (:
yesterday, the boys really had it. that's what you get if there's a teacher and me. give me attitude, i give you double. everything push to me. you think i what? matin? who can play alot of instruments? just because i girl, i'm not allowed to play the drums? is that is?! now you really got it. and leung, i don't want to talk to you about this ok! ok, honestly, my damn interest is only DRUMS! which part of that you feel i'm talking in french?! urgh! and thank you mr goh. i'm starting to like as my teacher. thank you for understanding me. fyi, he allowed me to go early because of this. thank you very much.
and benedict! nyeh2. hands up. you lose. oh so whatever i play, you don't want to play ah is it? well, now you got timpani part. oh wait. you boys play and handle whatever right? i just play percussion two and maybe some snare drum. matin! come back to band faster!!! you still owe me lessons to play on drums and timpani. but since i screwed up everything, it's just... haiis. i hate this. and someone [i know who] was obviously angry. go ahead be angry at me. because you made me do this. everything order me around. what if i order you around. i'll be like a devil's queen ordering people around like hell alright. i keep it all to myself all this while. but now, you had to let me burst it out. and... someone told leung about the incident whereby i shouted at mr ridz about my book thingy. whatthell?!! that has got NOTHING to do with this ok! urgh! i'm getting into more trouble. HELP!
haiis, tomorrow is milky runny thingy. please be there, tin2. as the other him [not 150405] but, that sick pervert [like what azri called him] WILL be there. so, you come. and i'll hand-cuff our hand together ok. nyeh2. hehe.scared and excited about tomorrow i guess. haiis. once it's done... band will go into my slacking list. meaning, i can slack and concentrate on my studies then. haiis...
but on the other hand, i don't feel like going tomorrow. like i told tin2. i'm too afraid to show my face in band. because of this. what will ever become of me?? nvm.
hmmms... ever heard of how the motorscooter, Vespa, sounds like when you are standing near them? why most indians like vespa, serious. well, i won't say it. nyeh2. jahat eyh you. and your kawan, that akmal. what only. i smack you both then tau. hahas. omg! i saw another dog. it was a sir-stanford-raffles-wannabe. hehe. if you know what i mean. and there was a smaller version too. hehe. and he had to cover my eyes so i won't think about it. i can't brainwash it off ok. it's too funny and it was on 9teen0606 ok! hahas.
hello kamu. kamu kamu, kamu duduk di dalam kelas, macam monyet kene belacan tau kamu. hahas. so that's how you sit when you are bored. very nice. i could have laughed on the spot. but i TAHAN. nyeh2. hahas.ok can't wait for tomorrow... TO END! by the way, freaky z!! give your cap can! i'm like going gaga over it! and your snickers! gawd!