that's all.

blog's back.
however, it won't be updated as often.
do note that.
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i'm here to just update one particular entry before i go M.I.A once again.
if friendship was made just because of something, don't bother making it first in the beginning. hell no, it's nothing about my friend. really, don't act up so friendly in front of my friends & i. after you found your happiness, you didn't even catch up things. when your happiness left, you sent a message. prfft, aww it was thoughtful of you. however, cuando perdí mi felicidad, & you knew it, you didn't even bother to asked. i thought you'd be the first, but no. instead, it's the opposite gender that were the first. that's why i preferred illegal ustazah as a friend i could relate to.no offence on that. it was really a great thing to befriend you. Sin embargo, si la amistad se hizo sólo a causa de que, ni siquiera se molesta en hacer uno el principio. No voy a mirar para arriba para saludar a usted en el futuro. es una absoluta decepción.

there you go, again. everytime i open up my blog back, it becomes a place for complains. it hurts the eyes doesn't it? anyways, the above paragraph is in general. aishah, you know what i mean :)

& i really miss you. idk why i'm still holding & hoping. please, i wish for you, a.s ♥

HIDAYAH YAHYA

HAPPY 17TH HIDAYAH YAHYA :D

miss you loads! the usual clique of crestwinds`07 must hang out one day ok?

happy 17th again! loves.

shamira, 16 tahun :)

HAPPY 16TH SHAMIRA BABY!
MUCH LOVES!

present will be given sooooon.
keep smiling ok :D

okayy, i need to rest. night.
HAPPY 16th again!

62nd & i still love you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! :D
MUCH LOVES!

i got my N81 thanks to him! hehe^^
since my blog is currently down, might as well make some updates here. hees, without anyone knowing.

okayy, i'm off. night.
i love my dad! present will be up soooon. that reminds me of my brother's present still & Shamira dearest one too.

♥

never find a love like this ♥

& it's true.
you always make me smile more than i ever have.
you always make me the happiest girl i ever was.
you always melt my heart, literally.
& that's when i love you ♥

there's a kid in US.

went out with aishah today. yay yay yay! it was fun. just between aishah & i, we did lots of things which we can't possible do with the presents of... *smiles widely*

marina square
we barely did anything there. walked around aimlessly & somehow we got hungry. & since i'm the youngest between the two, i had to choose. thus, i choose to bring her to the food place where i love the food :) which was at bugis.

bugis
we ordered our food & someone was literally enjoying it, for the first time. ahahks. i had my usual, teehee. after which we headed to bugis junction and walked aimlessly, yet again. before deciding to head down to vivo. before heading down there, we had to make sure. & we did make it sure :P

vivo city
the first stop, toilet. then we went to new urban male to look at the havaianas at the same time, *grins*. i manged to, aishah didn't. nevertheless aishah, city hall there is still the best. after that we headed out and just slacked. i became a photographer for merely a minute. we gossiped a lot :D then headed down to coffee bean. thanks aishah for the treat :) then walked in at Best. toyed with the cool gadgets there, hees(!) then headed to TOYS 'R' US :DD entered animal ally, baby section, bla bla bla. that big tree i some weird tree which was suppose to recite some nursery rhyme upon pressing the desired one. sadly, it didn't, holiday i think. about 1748h, headed off home. enjoyed my day nohh!

aishah still owes me two more pictures :) today made my day :D
& before i go,



HAPPY 19th & 21st TO ABG & ABG DANI, RESPECTIVELY :D (in advance)
their birthdays are tomorrow. like cool like that. anyways, tomorrow, cousins meet up! yay! although i'm quite disappointed in something which i heard a few moments ago.

Estoy fuera de las palabras a hablar. Soy de las lágrimas para llorar. Estoy de cosas para ver. Estoy fuera de la felicidad para sonreír. Estoy de aliento para respirar. Estoy de energía para desplazarse. Estoy fuera de la concentración para concentrarse. Estoy de sonidos para escuchar. No voy a hacer el traslado. te echo de menos.

[edit] & HAPPY FATHER'S DAY in advance too. i keep thinking it's on the 17th. my bad. [/edit]

friday, the 13th, so?

friday. the 13th. no offense, big deal.
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[instead of having a proper meal on the table, i went scribbling questions. & one of them was, why]

i feel like typing about what i'm feeling now. however, i rather not. for now, it's best i stay dormant. God knows what might happen next. sigh. one moment i'm feeling ok, the next, i'm not & this keeps repeating till i don't know when.

Als vertrouwen een rol speelt, moet u weten dat ik wil verminderen. Maar het lijkt erop dat het is gewoon zoals het is. i vertrouwde u te verminderen. U heeft mijn vertrouwen maar niets gebeuren. zoals ik al zei, denken als je in mijn schoenen en ik heb wat u heeft gedaan. je vindt het moeilijk om vertrouwen in mij als hoe je vertrouwde me op het eerste. dat komt omdat je het ziet herhaaldelijk gebeurt en geen vermindering. u bent veel dichter bij haar dan bent u bij mij. zoals ik al zei, is ze net als de vriendin en ik ben de vriend. weet u hoeveel het maakt me triest te zien dat. overal, het is haar haar haar. Ik wil niet zeggen dat het wel altijd me me me. Maar zij is uw god-zus. vraagt zij u 's nachts, je berichten. Maar mij? willen bericht dat u ook mij wel twee keer bedenken als het ok op bericht van alledag. & Heb je zelfs geen bericht me. i gemist al die tijd in het verleden. Ik heb alle vertrouwen had ik aan u omdat ik weet, zal dit werk. Maar nu, ik ben nog steeds van al mijn vertrouwen i hebben, maar u lijkt niet te zien. U ziet het als al ben ik het niet vertrouwen. ze nog steeds houdt van je, ik heb net hebben dat gevoel. & U lijkt te zijn bijna overal met haar. ik mis je. * huilt *

& I haar vertrouwen te stoppen is als deze. dat is waarom ik ga niet naar explosieven bij haar dan ook. na deze chat, ik hoop dat ze stopt. zucht.

KUNG FU PANDA & RETARD'S BIRTHDAY :D

it's a must watch movie :D i love it. a few phrases i remembered, or somewhat remember part of it, teehee,

• "the secret ingredient to the secret ingredient is..."
• "a warrior never quit"
• "it's not an accident"

well, that's the few i remembered. after the movie, my friend & i were practically imitating most of the scenes. it's so uber cute, the panda. the belly's awesome yaww, ahahks. praying mantis, so poor creature. to know why or to watch it for humor, catch the movie. literally, it was funny & ehem, someone was literally laughing out loud ;D




before i go, HAPPY 16TH TAN HUIBIN & DUANE TAN :D
thanks for all the moments you've been there with me to criticize you-know-who. & *points middle finger* retarduane rock ok :)
& huibin, you're always there to quack with me always. ahahahks :) love love huibin. SAY THANK YOU! nyahaha.

birthdays, birthdays, birthdays!

HAPPY 16th & 17th TO JONATHAN & AISYAH, RESPECTIVELY :D

i know, jonathan looks cute in that picture ^^
& jonathan, i kept my words about your present. don't say i didn't, which you did, nyahaha :)

sorry aica, i ripped it off from your blog. i don't have your picture, so i ripped it. sorry. anyways, 17 already! ahahks, will get you something a.s.a.p :)
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someone's away to KL. have a safe trip KeeM :)
aishah(illegal ustazah), i owe you loads. i'm just waiting for that day to come whereby we post the same entry about... you know, i know ^^
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anyways, 2 more days, 2 more days... *keeps on chanting*... je t'aime ♥
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a quiz aishah got me to do. here it is:

1. Who is your first love?
*my parents.

2. What you want the most right now?
*to get over & done with Design & Technology.
*my friend

3. What do you want to be in your next life?
*when you say next life, is it next life after teenage life or when i'm dead?

4. Something to describe yourself?
*i'm a girl.

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true,what would it be?
*aishah knows it :)

6. What are you afraid to lose now?
*everyone i love in life, literally.

7. Do you believe in ETERNAL love?
*yes, because i've been loving my parents since young, till now, forever.

8. If you meet someone that you love,would you confess to him/her?
*i already did, didn't i?

9. How would you spend 200 bucks?
*books Books BOoks BOOks BOOKs BOOKS & other necessary stuffs.

10. If one day,your BF/GF tells you 'Baby ive got someone new' what would you say & do?
*ask why, say it's out of the topic & cry.

11. Which type of person you hate most?
*hate is stupid. stupid is a mean word. therefore, hate is stupid because it's a mean thing to do.

12. So,you cherish every friendship?
*every friendship made is meant to be cherish, or else, why befriend in the beginning?

13. What makes you hyper?
*am i suppose to know what is it? because i don't as it happens randomly.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
*studies & getting my life right.

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
*define it properly. i think of it as in general :)

16. What do you want your friends to be like?
*i might as well make a robot friend right so i can install the behavior i want in them.

17. Who is the special person?
*my friend.

18. You have a steady?
*what's the difference between boyfriend/girlfriend & steady?

19. What do you think about boys?
*egocentric yet not egocentric; stubborn yet not stubborn; naive yet not naive; firm yet soft hearted; steel of a heart yet soften when being comforted;
*it's up to each individual of the female gender (if male, i have no comments) to think. although aishah & i have the same thinking that they should be hit by the mallet found in D&T workshop, other than that, i think they have a soft spot for a girl too. like KeeM said, he would run a mile just to make a girl smile (something like that) & i think most guys would too. unless, they think they are much more superior than us, that's when ego comes in, tsk!

20. Who do you cherish most in all your friends?
*obviously all right because why make friends in the first place if you don't want to cherish them?

Five people to do this question?
*up to anyone to do. sadly, people can't highlight my blog, so you could either go to aishah's blog or simply type them out. have fun.

can't lie a tear/ imy

i'm not having the positive side of life currently. only aishah, alyah & nadrah knows it. i can't face life anymore. i'm too scared. i don't want to go hospital. why me. why...

don't drift away,

[ instead of seeing me, i see you; close yet far ]
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Design & Technology kicked ass. i remembered laughing almost all the time. question is, did i fake it all? although, one scene really tickled me till now. i won't hit/heat for han zhen next time *inside joke*

the mind's wandering off to god-knows-where-it's-going-off-to. one day i should really make my mind stop thinking. be it about studies, food, sleep... simply said, everything. i think too much. gawdd. ok bye.

& i wish tonight, i would receive a message from you ♥