ok so it was wrong for raudhah bte mohamed to hang out with her good friends that are boys. though there are MORE girls than boys. wtf. i mean come on. i know them for about a year now. i know what they are like. and you still banned me from going out with them. you know the boys. i told you about them. they are not onto any stupid things right. urgh(!) here was what happen yesterday night.

rau: ba besok anta krete pukul brape(?)
dad: pagi pukul 7.
rau: oh ok
dad: ni besok ni pergi dgn sape ni(?)
rau: the usuals ah. ah, nisah, farreha, bobo, umar and shafiq.
dad: ader bdk laki(?)
rau: ah. but the usual boys ah. kwn baik ah.
dad: asl ader tige laki dan tiger pompan.

ok fast foward. i had to tell him all the fucking detail. he even ask who was shafiq. when i told him already who was shafiq... LAST YEAR. then i go into my room. then suddenly my dad shouted. ''eh rau. aku tak suker ko gi tengok movie kalau ader laki. rau kau kluar skarg. i want to talk to you.'' i went out then he lectured me habis habis. for god sake(!) i'm telling the TRUTH ok(!) why must you always BELIT BELIT my words(?)(!) then got this one point he cakap this.

dad: nanti lepas korang tengok movie, satu pompan gi dgn satu laki. lagi satu dgn lain. nanti lame kelamean asyik korg duer jer. nanti satu hari korg duduk kat bawa pokok tak tau buat ape baru ko tau. nanti perut ko boncet, ko tanggung sendiri.

bloody hell you know. i WON'T go to that bloody extreme kan. why must you think so the bloody far(?)urgh(!)

i bet you don't even know i cried BADLY. this has totally NO logical sense. you say i'm a girl. understandable. but you want me to dress like a BOY. but hang out with GIRLS and no BOYS. wtf is this??? i might as well go for plastic surgery and be a boy instead of a girl right. urgh(!) i hate my life. ok no offence. whatever he said was not meant
for me. but someone else. i don't wish to post the name here. but my dad totally is for her and not me. urgh(!) you know what. if this is how you want it, fine you get it. i'll be a girl but dress like boy. also it's because you NEVER had a daughter(!) that's why you don't know what a girl is like. urgh(!) sorry matin. i don't wish to involve my mum in this. you know why kan. haiis, what's the use of having a daughter parent bonding if everytime i try they say i got a muslihat behind it. and you know the muslihat is(?) i want money. eh bloody hell(!) is it even wrong to be close to you, my parents(?) i feel like i'm not in the family. sobxx. and to the extend you ask me who was the guy i went with that time to buy bubbletea. he is MATIN sec4 and where he live??? i don't know. it PROVES that i and HIM got NOTHING going on OK(!)

rre, sorry if i go lambat. my parents tak kasi keluar till 1pm. but you and the rest carry on first alright.

i'm not being wild and rebellious when i had the freedom to go out ok. i go out when it's a holiday. and that's also wrong for me to go out. why(?) because raudhah already go out so many time this year. what only sey. i hardly go out ok. when it's school, IT'S SCHOOL. when it's holiday, IT'S HOLIDAY(!) gaah. i want to cry.

gawd(!) i'm itching everywhere. so many mosquitoe bites. nevermind. i'll die faster what.