who would ever...

& as i walk into the darkness, i wish for everyone i love back into my life.

i'll abandon all my feelings if i can never sort them out right.
i'll abandon all the happiness i had built if i lost a great friend.
i'll abandon everything in life if lies just keep going around.
i'll abandon myself if i can't understand who i am.
i'll abandon my future if i can't dictate/draw it.
i'll abandon this blog if it's just a place to critic myself.

& the question i asked myself is,
"can i pause my life just to rewind & play it back at the mistake scene before the mistake is being made?"

& i wish to go on hiatus till i'm fine.
kak liyana, when you're online, we'll talk ok? *cries*

& i miss siti nuraishah.
& i love ahmadsaiful.

... unexpected ...

& i'm that happy girl when i'm with you ♥♥

long update. or short update? i think i shall give a short update. i'm no where near the mood to update long grandmother story like i always do. i'm tired, that's one thing for sure. however, here i am, blogging. what the heck (-.-)

to cut the short update even shorter. i'm sorry. what happened today turned out unexpected.

ok i'm done. i don't have the mood to update. i guess it just had me thinking, deeper. at any cost, i'll apologies. not you.

ok, bye.

from now on...

they don't always portray nice meanings behind them...

i have to stop slacking from now on. i will start on revising. i will not waste any time i have. that includes recess, please. i must study. if none can help me, so be it. they can't always be there to help me, nor vice versa. i shall try help myself then.

this means time alone for studying. for the sake of Os. sigh. & for the sake of me not asking them help anymore. that's it.

*i'm sick of always giving in to you guys & hardly you guys gave in when i needed help. is this what they call friends?*