& sometimes butterflies do bring tears of joy to me even if they scare me.
updates updates updates!
Monday ; 180208
ANNA FOO & FARREHA are 16yrs old (: sadly for them, there was english common test. after which i can't remember what happened, so my bad (: who cares anyways :D
Tuesday ; 190208
draggy day. XJ(male) told me something which made me stoned for a moment. sigh, thanks for telling (: had lecture session with nadrahGF for 1 period. remember what i said ok (: had MT class test. zomg, the passage is really !@#$. no comments. after school went to McDonalds at Loyang Point with nadrahGF. yes, i told her to not go for CCA [ nadrah it's told you not to go, not skip ok, ahahks ] she needs to shut down her working brain. did maths. then we headed to Central. saw Ali H. ahahks. then met allyme, shazniTWIN and nash. after that headed home.
Wednesday ; 200208
HANISAH turns 16th. main sedap poke people's butt with marker. aiyoo! ahahks. had 6hrs of maths. it literally killed my inner self. had tuition at night. was really half dead. it's good sometimes i keep quiet & you talk ok (: hehe. after that hit the sack & slept like an "oink oink".
Thursday ; 210208
nothing that i can remember. except i had chemistry extra class. nash and i did the practices on our own. we rock baybeh! during lunch break, shazniTwin & i headed to library & used the computer. shazni, we rock hard you know. sometimes the pig is really yellow. ahahks, COWard eyys.
Friday ; 220208
i bet you. 3/4 of the sec4s were like mad students revising mainly chemistry. stress i tell you. combined science common test was doable i should say. careless here & there. sigh. just hope i do well. after that i headed for band. finally! mr shahLAME came (: oh, zafran's cute. ahahks. [nevertheless my friend, ily (:] the contrast is there i should say. ahahks. taught sufiah mallets. oh! she was from angklung and was transferred (: after band headed to Central with nadrahGF & syafiqah. i miss those moments. haha. bought (actually nadrah, thanks (: ) STRAWBERRY MILKSHAKE :D then home.
Today ; 230208
had T.A in the morning. it was the funniest shiet of all. the 2nd last activity that is. zomg laa. ended 20mintues later, sorry. went to meet my friend. then home. will be having tuition at 1700h. maths baybeh! brother is currently at the air show. no fair laa. i want to go but cannot ): nevertheless at least i can sleep at home. ahahks :p
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disturbance in the mind for today
somehow, i've been day dreaming a lot these passed few weeks. any reasons why? i don't know why. ever since that bus incident, she's all that was ever in those dreams that made me cry. those dreams which had me crying because she got in between. & when i read it off her friendster, maybe i'm just being paranoid. that one name could be anybody. however, is that name referring to who i think it is? i don't know. like i said, i'm currently living in a world of possible paranoia. slap me if i deserve it. & when i saw those messages, my inner self was being questioned. however, i know i have no rights to feel this way. forgive me since i do.
however, she's as though seen sucking up, a lot. for god's sake, get a life. yea i know, i'm nothing compared to your prettiness. however, i'm something when it comes to comparing my brains. i don't brag. i insult. i don't demoralize. i critic. i don't tarnish names. i watch you putting yourself down. as much as i love to bring you down, i know, i have absolute no rights to do so.
i'm friendly. i don't expose myself. i don't wear clothes which seems to have been eaten up by the person itself. i don't have 935839252332 guy friends waiting for me outside school to fetch me. i don't critic my own friends nor do i put their name here big big & insult them. i don't hate.
hate is stupid. stupid is a mean word. therefore, hate is mean.
don't get it, shut up. to whoever is reading this, don't ever think it is you. this is a general post. if you think it is you, be my guest to tag "i fcuking think it is me". oh, do remember, your name is most appreciated. never will i reveal who is this. i know i have absolute no rights. however, as they say right nadrah/alyah/shazni/aishah.
sometimes the sky is green, the tress are blue. the grass is pink & the pigs are yellow.
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i want to sleep. bye.
